miss fortune
not to be trusted
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Facades are underrated. A facade can help maintain a more stable external world when the internal one is less stable. In this way, they're very pragmatic, functional, and a good adaptation to life. Maintaining a stable external world can help the internal one stabilize and prevent the internal chaos from permeating all of life in a disabling way.
Maybe it is somewhat the quest for psychological intimacy and a desire to be accepted unconditionally by those we care about which drives us to be discontent with the disparity we call a facade?
Everyone's mind and personality is unique. If you recognize detrimental patterns of thinking starting to appear, that's just a normal defense mechanism alerting you to do something about them. Many things help, but I've found personally that finding ways to reduce stress and replacing the negative and nonproductive thoughts with positive and productive ones are most helpful.
If you think you're "going crazy," then that's a good sign that you're not.
This is probably the first major challenge you've had since the traumatic event. I think in a year, you'll look back at this time as a challenging one which made you stronger and even happier.
thanks!
Yes, I realize that having a public face is kind of necissary to get on in society- I doubt I'd ever get hired if I was overly honest or acted like I was feeling at the time
yeah, it's kind of tough to be in an intimate relationship and keep that part completely hidden, but I KNOW what he's been through in his past and don't want to cause any unnecissary problems for him... he's had a tough life and I don't want to add my inability to function as a normal person to that- it's almost embarassing... for goodness sake, I'm embarassed to admit to anything here
Substituting negative with positive and staying busy has worked well over the past year- I suppose just finding a healthy outlet for stress now would possibly head off what I fear happening