[MENTION=34350]Norexan[/MENTION]
I just discovered this thread, so I'm playing catch up. Sorry if I cover something already mentioned or concluded.
What would you do for an INFP with HSP. I literally hate traveling. I cannot stand crowds. "Facing your fears" doesn't work for me because, I'm not afraid. I'm simply overwhelmed. Too many sights, sounds and the perceived emotions of others makes me exhausted to the point I want to curl up on the ground and go to sleep (before medication for "anxiety", I WOULD fall asleep- while talking to people, eating out, at educational events and while driving
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). My brain can't turn off all the info and I go through sensory overload.
As for music... I am not "smart". I have dyscalculia and a terrible memory which makes certain things darn near impossible for me. I cannot read or write music. My hands are too uncoordinated for chords, but I can play most things (simplified) by ear.
For the last couple of months, I've had a melody or two running through my mind. One, is my own creation (I'm fairly sure of lol). The other, I'm just not certain. I've been playing on Garage Band (keyboard) to capture them.
While I love music, I usually only listen to it while driving. As for writing music (lyrics and melodies), the last time I did so was a decade + ago. It's outside my comfort zone because I have a lot of "T" (as I believe it to be?)
I have to memorize the notes and their order etc etc. It's very stressful, but a different sort of stress than the day to day stuff. Being interrupted, while sorting it all out, would make me exceptionally cranky because it takes all of my concentration.
I'm not
feeling anything during this process, unless I finally get everything JUST right, then I'm just happy and proud of myself... or I feel annoyed when I get the timing wrong or hit the wrong note on accident. Mostly, I'm
thinking- trying to remember what and when and then blend the 2 melodies together. I've not gotten that done quite yet. The notes start in similar places but end differently. So, I then have to think of how to change the octaves to be more complimentary.
Man , you are still using a perspective of a person who consumed music , i was always talking about composition .
This is one of my early piano composition
Playing: cosmicdance.mp3 - picosong .
Where you see Si and Fi , I just see Non-funtional harmony , modal harmony , extended harmony , Metrical Phase Shifts , Poly-rhythm , Counter-point , augmentation ,ect....
(BTW [MENTION=36808]Non_xsense[/MENTION] Love your melody! Bookmarked it
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I think I understand what you're saying, Norexan. At first, I was agreeing with Non_xsense because writing music isn't as you describe. But the gist is still correct. You're saying, for us to de-stress, we need to get out of our comfort zone. And while "T" (what writing music is to me), is WAY outside my comfort zone, it doesn't de-stress me. It's still too much of an INTERNAL process.
Which brings me back to my first question...
(Sorry, if this doesn't make much sense. I've got another migraine and my thoughts are all over the place right now).