You know ive realised that in reality I have no idea any more, the more information I receive the more convoluted my thought processes become. Complexity into obscurity with no practical use. The multitudinousness of my ideas is actually headache inducing, ive realised that many people with a seemingly concrete grasp of this theory and it's interpretations often dont question it the way I do and do not consider the variables the way I feel compelled to do, arrogant as that sounds it isn't intented that way.
My understanding of his work and this theory is based almost entirely on a series of eureka moments built upon accumulated information, that comes like a match flare in the dark but which then soon fades away, leaving a bare imprint, but taking everything of use.
The problem is I want set answers and I wont get them from a heuristic model which acknowledges the fluidity of people. To this end im not sure if MBTI or JCF were ever of serious use to me, I was never unhappy before, merely curious and my curiousity grabbed me and pulled me down the rabbit hole. But the rabbit hole is confusing and just when you think you have caught up with the rabbit, away he speeds again down some new avenue of understanding. I think it is a sobering fact that I am just limited in my intelligence and imagination and there is nothing I can do about that but accept it.
Connecting patterns in a useful manner is not my talent, I can only correlate with baseless stereotypes. People have always been too variable, too....specific for me. And this is a mode of thinking ive had since being a child, there is no indoctrination or internal war of projected self-doubt, this is just the way ive always seen things and to not do so is to not be myself.
But this very mode of cognition is also anathema to a theory such as this and all it's interpretations. Catagorisation is not wrong, nor has it ever been, but if there is to be a catagorisation then it has to be absolutist in my mind. This is a product of black and white thinking in myself that may never be undone, seeing as how it wasn't 'done' in the first place.
Afterall, how does a person go against the true, unadulterated, nature of their personality?