▪▪▪First Q!
1.What would you say to a 5-year-old child if he or she asked you what the purpose of life is?
â—I would say ; "don't worry, you'll find it some day!"
But If an adult asks me I would say ; "to reach my goals/dreams without hurting others directly, and to make my loved ones happy/proud!"
2.What type of advice would you give that same child on how to survive in this world?
â—Try to be wise, instead of being kind and considerate.
Don't be overly cruel, but don't be overly kind either.
3.If you were told you only had one year to live from today, and it was 100% guaranteed that you would die exactly 1 year from now, what would you do in that year?*
Note: Your health will be fine all the way up to the end.*
â—I wouldn't panic. I'm not afraid of it. I would die and not feel anything after that. Besides, no one can predict future! So I wouldn't fully trust the person who said this. Especially that it is noted that it's not health issue!
So I would run my normal life (with a lil bit of anxiety).
However, I would go on a trip or two, to my favorite places "IF I could"!
4.What do you really want in your truest self?*
â—to be happy, successful, loved or respected, etc, Idk, this question is really general !
5.What have you substituted/settled for compared to what you really want?
â—Not settled yet! I'm still trying to reach my goals.
But sometimes material beauties and needs like shopping thing I find interesting, or trying new things, make my mind and life busy too.
Not completely though.
As buying myself new things motivate me to try to reach my goals.
6.What are your defense mechanisms?
â—I start avoiding people or certain environment or confrontation as much as I can, and decide to bottle up my feelings and my thoughts.
And I would become passive aggressive.
7.What are you like in relaxed and non-threatening situations?
â—I "rarely" feel safe & comfortable. But when I do, I become more open, more cheerful, more adventurous, more "in the moment", etc.
8.What is your predominant fault?
â—Not having real time management.
Not being assertive enough.
Being afraid of conflicts, confrontation and arguments.
Being anxious and self-conscious!
Being too cynical.
9.Think of a time when you felt at ease and connected to yourself and others. What did you think about yourself, others, and the entire world during this time?
â—I felt that life isn't that bad, and not all ppl are bad/cruel.
That I can relate to some people and feel comfortable around them.
That I can gain Energy from some ppl too.
That I CAN reach my goals step by step.
I feel happy at those time.
10.Think of a time when you felt anxious and disconnected from yourself and others. What did you think about yourself, others, and the entire world during this time?
â—I mentally break down.
Start feeling even more cynical and anxious.
I feel like world is a cruel place, that all people are cruel, two-faced and unhelpful.
I try not to trust people, avoid them as much as I can, start hating everyone.
Start thinking that I don't deserve anything good or anyone.
That I shouldn't do things that I enjoy.
That there is something wrong with me.
I become hopeless and can't focus on my tasks, and lose interest (from living).
Start thinking that everyone probably hates me & talks behind my back. That things will get worse!
11.What things do you feel you cannot do because they might jeopardize your survival?
â—I feel like I cannot be open enough in real life.
Because I might regret it later, people might use it against me, It might offend some people. And that I hate drama and confrontation/conflict.
12.What do you need in your life to face your fears?
â—Willpower, confidence, witt, comfort, being relaxed, courage, etc
(I have none! Haha)
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▪▪▪2nd Q!
1.What are your most important values?
â—Logical Equality, Egalitarianism, Individuality and logical liberalism.
And Balance!
Live and let live as long as it makes sense!
2.Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
â—I don't.
3.What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
â—Philosophy, psychology, liberalism, business, architectures, future goals, different countries, cultures and languages, buildings, adventure, horror, imaginary what ifs, Taboo topics, favorite things or ideas, films and sometimes actors, food and culture, astronomy, religion and atheism, and other random things.
4.Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?*
â—nope! Not really interested.
But I try to be careful when it comes to my body and health.
I try to keep the balance.
5.What do you think of daily chores?
â—I try to keep my apartment clean, and I try to be well groomed and tidy.
But some days I struggle with daily chores and lose my energy.
6.Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
â—I don't really read books.
But I read alot on the internet. (About world, countries, food and cultures, how tos, philosophy/psychology, designing, etc.
But when I read books, I read the ones I can relate to or understand deeply and reciprocate.
*The Picture of Dorian Gray
*Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde
I usually can't focus and read books. So I prefer nagazines. Cause I can focus on the pictures and beauties without having to read everything.
I watch tv series every once in a while. But sometimes get bored and lose interest.
I usually prefer reality shows, competition shows, food shows, business, architecture/designing, real estate, supernatural/paranormal science, food and culture, countries, city tours, etc.
But some movies/series I've watched "and loved" are ;
Game of Thrones
Fringe
Supernatural
Walking Dead
Penny Dreadful
The Mentalist
Friends
How I Met Your Mother
The Big Bang Theory
Desperate Housewives
Downton Abbey
Movies;
Horror, mystery, psychological thrillers and philosophical movies.
(Sometimes scifi).
The Machinist
Memento
Cube
Hollow Man
Resident Evil
The Wrong Turn
The Saw
Silent Hill
The Hours
Face/Off
The Conjuring
Source Code
Shutter Island
Identity
House of 9
Mindhunters
Nine Dead
Exam
The Others
((Plz suggest similar movies if you can)).
7.What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
â—Others treating me or my loved ones in a bad way, being ignored or rejected, Conflicts, being criticized infront of others and harshly, personal insults, failures, things like that can make me cry. Etc (depends).
8.How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
â—I try to avoid it. Yeah I sometimes fantasize about sex, but generally try to avoid dating, relationships or romance in real life.
I don't even know if I'm "truly" into men or women!!!
I don't want drama. And I want my privacy, freedoms and reaching my goals.
â–ªWhat qualitied do I want in a partner?
Idk, people's personality cannot really be listed.
Specially when I don't have enough experience.
But; probably someone Open-minded, helpful, adventurous, wise and sharp, interesting, charismatic, relaxed but ambitious, attractive, well groomed and careful about his/her body, someone who understands me, has things in common with me, isn't afraid of taboos, loyal, doesn't want children, etc.
9.If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
â—Dislike children and not interested.
Also, don't really like pets (except for rodents).
10.A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
â—On the inside : get sort of angry and want to prove them they're wrong or that I'm right too.
On the outside : depends. I might or might not confront the person. Or I might avoid talking about it with that person.
11.How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
â—I'm an introvert and rarely make friends. And it depends. Idk how to answer this question.
12.How do you behave around strangers?
â—depends on what type of people they are and how they behave around me.
(If they smile, I smile too, If they act cold or rude, I get anxious and shy, etc).