hi everyone. I am a definite 4wing3 going through what should be an easy breakup with an 8 (forgot her wing). Anyway, we dated for only 3 months or so but ultimately she wouldn't commit and I began to get pissed. In short, after we broke up on the phone she sent me a text basically saying nice to meet you bye forever in nicer terms which triggered my feeling of abondonment and sense that I was not enough. I am living in 4 hell right and and cannot stop feeling sorry for myself / angry. 4s just can't fucking out emotions down and I'm almost ashamed. Her 8 made her confident and able to walk away from things rationally. I'm seriously envious of her ability to meet new people and feel satisfied during this emotional time. Even though I know it was a bad fit I'm still angry I wasn't enough to make her commit (fuckin crazy right). She stated on date 3 that she wasn't looking for a relationship because she Just got out of one. Yet here I am saying I wasn't enough because she didn't want a relationship WITH ME.
Anyway. I feel so disgusted to be a 4 and have such little control over my emotions and rational. Like part of me says I wish I could know what it was like to just walk away and leave things be. God knows I've tried. But my mind just Takes me back to a place of rethinking, analyzing, and I am not enough. It sounds so stereotypical, I know it's my type, but I can't escape it. Fuck 4 dude.
Anyway. I feel so disgusted to be a 4 and have such little control over my emotions and rational. Like part of me says I wish I could know what it was like to just walk away and leave things be. God knows I've tried. But my mind just Takes me back to a place of rethinking, analyzing, and I am not enough. It sounds so stereotypical, I know it's my type, but I can't escape it. Fuck 4 dude.