1-5 very sensitive, a bit whiny, loved animals very quiet baby/toddler, very easy to be around, very sweet, but noted as being "old and ancient" or having an old soul.
5-11 Way too sensitive to other kids thoughts of me. i recall in Kindergarten thinking the other kids hated me on the first day. I felt "bad" or very different, moved schools all the time so I never really had many friends. i played alone mostly but explored everything, always ending up in weird places or finding strange isolated corners of the world, others didnt see. Loved animals. Did fine in school, gifted program, didnt ever fight or disagree with the others kids and would have friends who were the other outcasts now and then. I really did want friends but when I would talk with them, i just would talk about the weirdest craziest shit, thus quickly i learned it was best to just be quiet. I created my own religion and should have been a child abduction statistic. My mom was in therapy almost constantly and my grandom had all these crazy ideas about religion thus I was exposed to a constant barrage of self help lessons about personal responsibility and integrity, forgiveness, the universal worth of all living creatures, and how other peoples opinions are irrelevant if one is true to one's self.
11-18 in middle school the other girls started making fun of me as I didnt dress really cute or wear makeup, plus middle school girls are evil. At first it really hurt, but then one day I turned on this girl and verbally cut her to pieces in front of our class, saying "Your own insecurity and lack of confidence is why you pick on me, mostly because the popular girls barely will let you hang with them." Thus Te was born. I was a sullen miserable creature for about a year. Mom got my a horse and I decided the other kids could go to hell. I basically shut out the other kids after this. I couldnt interact intelligently or creatively with them and they were mean, thus it didnt seem worth the time to try and make friends. In 10th grade it occurred to me that if i didnt want to end up like my mom-totally dependent upon abusive men, I need to get an education, so I began to take school seriously. I was on the debate team, did really well, made friends with the NTP outcasts at my school. My best friend was an entp chick who was incredibly hot and she destroyed many a poor young high school boy. I was her quiet sidekick who people wouldnt ask out as they thought I was stuck up, not understanding I was terrified. I then got voted the most beautiful girl in my senior class after 2 dates in all of high school...? They called me an ice princess. The whole time from 8th to 12th grade I was working about 50 hours a week at a horse farm, thus I didnt really even miss the dating. Work ethic, responsibility, and people are not worth messing with or being hurt by was my mantra. I loved to evade rules.
18-22 met an ISTP, got knocked up, met many more ENTPs and INFJs and became a mom and a biochemist. I was quite opinionated and rude about debating Fi values at this point, but I eventually developed a duel logic/value approach as the ENTPs would accept nothing less in debates. They taught me that often the most logical solution is the best solution and an illogical solution is sorta useless. All Te, all the time used in the service of Fi. NeFi fell in love with the beauty that was science..what is a soul? it must be a physical thing...study the mind, study the brain, study the proteins, study, the electrical impulses that conduct thought, study the molecules, study the atoms, study the math underlying the atoms, all in search of a soul...
22-26 went to grad school, more NTPs and some NTJs for friends. Again, all logic all the time. Towards the end I realized i wasnt as good as the NTPs were and that I didnt like what I was doing. At one point I had decided all fantasies were bad and STOPPED imagining things. Suddenyl it was all open again and I started really relishing things like gardening to insane levels-exploration of religions, and a realization that I would never really love my husband or allow him in close.
28-30 Got a job. got very ill and thought I was going to die. planned my own suicide as I did not want to burden my family-Te. got better pouring over scientific journals and forcing my doc to administer the correct meds-Ne.
30-34 learned that corporate america and the internet are both full of crazy people including myself. I cant help but push projects and stand up for what the right thing to do is at my company, but the result is that my TJ bosses call me a hero, but my Fe using bosses exclude me from everything. Weeeee!!! I am almost always right, but that isnt what really matters, so I dont think corporate america is for me long term. fell in love for real. lots of rough fi growth.