but yes, it just seemed like around the age of 12-14 the generation gap between myself and my parents just became too frustrating to try to bridge. and it just sorta seemed like both sides gave up trying. i think since this time i have changed so very much, not only from depression, but just from my interests and moods and personalities that its like... if theyre going to just now say 'youre really messed up cause youve become more introverted' [as all concerns that my mom said were socially based observations] its just annoying that they choose to call me out on this single trait ive gained. its hard to put into words. i dont even feel the same way i did a few weeks ago. i change alot.
but yes its extremely positive! only downside is that she is 2 hours away. but ive had a different mindset since i met her. its a positive influence on my life for sure. ive only had one or two short depressive bouts in a week or so.
i think that's usually the age people go through many changes. if you don't include my depression at 20, those years were the toughest of my life, too... i remember my mum telling me afterwards that my parents were also worried, because i spent so much time alone in my room and was in a cranky mood a lot. i think it's usually just normal puberty hitting you. for introverted and sensitive people it can be a little different than for more extroverted and assertive people.
it's great that you have someone in your life you want to know and who wants to know you.
it's good to have friends to relate to.
the teenage years are usually the hardest in a way, because you are growing up and the relationship you have with your parents is changing.
do you yourself feel like you have changed a lot as a person, or do you think you are just getting to know yourself more and having a more reflective time in your life right now? what do you think caused this to happen? (did it happen gradually from puberty to now, or how did it happen?) are you feeling bad, because you have changed, or are you feeling bad, because people don't seem to understand you very well right now? do you talk with your parents?
if you ever want to talk, just send me a message.