It seems to me like your ideas feel very separate already. That not much of anything relates to anything else, and it all feels pretty meaningless most of the time
It all relates; it isn't meaningless. It's just difficult to articulate.
Bear with me, I'm going to try something completely new and never tried before and see what results we get. I'm going to read the profile for INTJ again and see what pops out at me and write it in bold. We'll see how effective this method is for those-like-you things.
Ni -Te feels lonely and quiet. Quiet, interspersed with the occasional memories and confusion. There's a feeling that things outside of self are already known before examining them, and everything is apparent and easy to understand. But the self, inside...that is not. There are single desires that are very loud, but then just as quickly, very mutable. Structures make sense, but what is the meaning?
This is very apt.
Ah it's the Ne-Fi that's giving me the ability to maneuver through myself. Your Fi is far down and makes it difficult to figure out what means what and the lack of Ne leaves you with only a few things floating around in your mind at any given moment to be able to compare your current thoughts to.
No, it just isn't extroverted. It's Ni-Fi instead of Ne-Fi.
Would you care for a taste of Ni-Fi? Look here:
Tao Te Ching
1
The tao that can be told
is not the eternal Tao
The name that can be named
is not the eternal Name.
The unnamable is the eternally real.
Naming is the origin
of all particular things.
Free from desire, you realize the mystery.
Caught in desire, you see only the manifestations.
Yet mystery and manifestations
arise from the same source.
This source is called darkness.
Darkness within darkness.
The gateway to all understanding.
11
We join spokes together in a wheel,
but it is the center hole
that makes the wagon move.
We shape clay into a pot,
but it is the emptiness inside
that holds whatever we want.
We hammer wood for a house,
but it is the inner space
that makes it livable.
We work with being,
but non-being is what we use.
12
Colors blind the eye.
Sounds deafen the ear.
Flavors numb the taste.
Thoughts weaken the mind.
Desires wither the heart.
The Master observes the world
but trusts his inner vision.
He allows things to come and go.
His heart is open as the sky.
15
The ancient Masters were profound and subtle.
Their wisdom was unfathomable.
There is no way to describe it;
all we can describe is their appearance.
They were careful
as someone crossing an iced-over stream.
Alert as a warrior in enemy territory.
Courteous as a guest.
Fluid as melting ice.
Shapable as a block of wood.
Receptive as a valley.
Clear as a glass of water.
Do you have the patience to wait
till your mud settles and the water is clear?
Can you remain unmoving
till the right action arises by itself?
The Master doesn't seek fulfillment.
Not seeking, not expecting,
she is present, and can welcome all things.
Te is a comfortable place. When things make sense, everything is comfortable. When systems work according to planned and there is no clutter, all of that space is very comforting. Slowly, there will rise colors and passions into the muted whiteness. I saw whiteness now, because I think I misinterpreted what color the inside of your consciousness is. It's white, like a blank sheet of paper.
This is true when younger.
Maybe it's not focused anywhere. Maybe that's the point of Ni. I had always assumed that it's direction is focused inward, but it could just be a blank piece of paper where the Te makes the structures and the Fi informs the meaning.
Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes. Good insight.
It's doing not-doing. Another way to put it is that it's just a way of looking at the world, where that which is not obvious to most people is obvious to oneself, but the price one pays for such insight is that that which is obvious to most people isn't obvious to oneself.
I have a friend who is an INTJ who when he isn't at work, smokes weed, drinks, and builds things in minecraft all day, punctuated by a lot of whiny rants on facebook about whichever political thing he's pissed off about that particular day, and I never can figure out what exactly he's railing against because if he'd just go out and take in new insights, make new connections, he'd get out of his rut.
INFPs are good for INTJs like that. You guys don't tell us what to think, you ask questions, and the questions that you ask are the
answers.
I'm serious. Remember Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy? The answer is 42. The answer is useless. You need the
right question! You guys ask the right questions.
I have an ENTJ friend who always seems to find the simplest answers to my most perplexing of life's interpersonal problems--when in doubt, cut it out.
This works most of the time, but once in a while you end up saying, "WTF!" when it doesn't work out, and the ENTJ is like, "I didn't say there weren't any risks."
The Ni dominance of the INTJ must feel like a very ordered mental space where very little new goes on inside until something activates the desire to solve a problem.
Sorta-kinda.
It isn't ordered. It's just that the conclusions are always ordered. Ni is always
synthesizing things, putting ideas together to come up with new ideas. The new ideas are never wholly original, but they're great shortcuts to get to the next new idea.
Understanding Ni as being oriented around "solving problems" is essential. Ni (INTJ or INFJ) is the quintessential troubleshooter.
Your inferior, as an INFP. Oh, wait, now you're xNFP? OK, maybe ENFP is correct.
I like to think I'm very logical and it's funny that the things I say to you through my Te lens seem garbled to you. You are more proficient with Te, so you see the static surrounding my Te. You have my Fi, as well, so you can check for meaning just as I can, but my world is a bit more vibrant and radiating with meaning than yours--my space inside is very cluttered, very disorderly.
Actually, NFP Te works great. The only problem you guys have with Te is that you HATE (with your Fi) what it tells you to do. If you are flustered because you have 20 obligations but can only meet 5 of them, Te tells you to prioritize, while Fi tells you that all of them are important. In my experience, it isn't clutter in the NFP mind, it's just a reluctance to admit trade-offs. Fi wants its cake and to eat it, too.
**Your space and comfort inside are calming, Ni seems to need a lot of quiet and space to activate itself. Ni gives space for the Te and Fi to dance together, little wisps of color against the blank page. Te is always active, always seeing the "right" way, the obvious answer, and Ni gives it all the space it needs to operate, nudging it subtly towards this thing or that thing, but always in the background, the unspoken hero."
My INTJ grandmother died a year or so back at the age of 101. When speaking to guests in her hostess mode, she would say things like, "If you need anything, please tell me. I can show you how you can do without it."
I envy your mind. Your simplicity and calmness. To have a day where my head isn't jumbled up with 50 things all the time. To be able to spend my time focused primarily on the puzzles and patterns I love so much, it fills me with yearning. I may be able to draw connections between one thing and 50 million other things, but it's difficult for me to have original thoughts and solutions in all this mess. I need someone to lead and direct and care for me if I don't limit myself to just a few things at once. INTJs make so much sense and it's so pleasant to read the things they say.
As per quoting my grandmother above, the simplicity comes from accepting the obvious and working from there. As long as you're working from truth, your conclusions will be simple (if not easy). If you're working from desires, your conclusions (if you reach any) will either be really complex, or simply asking for your wishes to be fulfilled without any intervening steps.
E.g.,
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