In the previous thread, most people said that I'm an INTP. However, I disagree with that. INTPs have a need for outer feelings, somewhere, deep inside them. I don't. I have a logic reason for every single action of mine. They also seem to not know what they wanna do until their 30s, and I knew what I wanna do since I was 12.
I am a quick talker, even though I think every bit before I say it. It simply happens really fast. I never say something if I don't have a reason for saying it, or moreover, if I don't want to say it (I don't "blurp" out something, afterwards saying or thinking "I shouldn't have said that). Hell, I wouldn't even talk to a dying relative if I wouldn't have a reason to do so. Yea, that makes me insensitive... But I am insensitive! I'm looking for logic everywhere, and nowhere for feelings. For me, feelings cannot be a reason for a decision. I also don't give myself justifications which should seem logical but aren't consistent with the reality, things that people tell themselves to rationalize their actions when their actions don't make sense.
Now, to the real stuff: my main drive is to express my ideas and opinion. My life goal is to have a software or video games company that would allow me to put my ideas to the real world (in games and programs) for people to see. However, I do not care if those people would like them or not, if they would cheer me or not, if I'd get asked an autograph or not. In fact, I wouldn't want to be asked for an autograph, that'd be annoying and would only waste my time. I, however, would like to give speeches or press conferences, talking about my ideas and creations. I also don't care how they may impact the world, I care to express them.
Another thing that I'm obsessed with is reasons. I often ask people "why?" That can be in the form of "why do you wanna do that?" "why do you think so?" etc.. Rarely there is a prolonged conversation where I wouldn't say "why" and expect an answer.
If you want to read the 1.0 version, there's a link in my signature. It's much longer and contains different info.
I-TP: When I was very young, I did have a messy outburst of shouting once or maybe even twice, but not more. After that... Never had one, I don't want to scream at people, I don't cry, etc.. When I was a kid, I used to cry, but not much too. I can't remember the last time I cried. All in all, I do not relate to this.
EN-P: I can relate to this, HOWEVER I do control it with much success. While I may want to check something, if I see it as an illogical thing to do, I do not. In other words, if I think that it is not worth to be obsessive, I don't do it, even though I may want to. I'm much more confident than to not trust myself to this great extend.
IN-J: That sounds like impulsiveness, impulsive buying. I wouldn't do that. I would've bought a nice place or a nice car, or whatever else I wanted if I could before that, and if I was in a nice place and liked everything (which would be the case), I wouldn't have a logical reason to buy something grand - either I wouldn't need it or I would already have it.
E-TJ: Definitely not, I would NEVER say anything like that. I stick to logical arguments even in the most stressful situations, and I can accept defeat, even though I have to do it rarely. If somebody would say that to me, especially in the middle of an argument, I'd get annoyed and may even use this illogicality against him if I had a reason to.
Conclusion: From these descriptions, the best I can relate to EN-P, however to not that far extend. And to the extend that I can relate to, I control it very well, so externally the lesser extend is not even visible, as I don't transfer it to my actions.
No. I don't even want to cry, or shout, etc.. That's completely different.
Well, thinking about the worst situations that I've been in (and there were quite a few of really fucked up ones)... Well, I can't relate to anything as something that may take me over. I always have the control and never have felt like I may lose it.
Thinking about these situations, usually I was analyzing the impact that they are going to have on my life. Not emotion-wise, but for example if I was 14, my dad was Bill Gates and he died, I'd be analyzing what will happen with the empire, what impact it had on his mom, and what she's gonna do, what other people gonna do, how will their actions be related to me.
Last time someone I was very close to (closest?) had died, I was about 15 or so. I remember being pissed because I had to sit at the casket with other people, and the daughter was talking non-stop. It was bad enough that I had to waste two days sitting there, wake up early to go there, but also I had to listen to the constant whispering of her to any people there. It was utterly annoying. I even said that she should shut up, but obviously she didn't. While I was sitting there, I was observing how the people acted, who came, what they did, were they really sad or not, what will happen to me due to that person's death (it was a family member), how will other family members act towards it after the funeral, etc.. Out of there, I was just happy that I finally got home and can do something I at least remotely like, which was to do something at the PC, I think it was to play some games. I didn't burst, didn't got drunk, didn't buy anything, didn't scream, didn't do anything like that. I acted as I normally do. I was also thinking how stupid all the ceremony is, and expensive, which is even more stupid. I was wondering about the reasons why people do it.
The analysis wasn't obsessive, it was as usual, except there was more factors than there usually is: more people involved, more implications, etc.. And as usual, most of the conclusions of my analysis came true in a short while. The thing that I remember the most is the annoyance of certain people as they were acting irrationally, and since it was a very close and public event, I got to see that a lot closer than usual. I also remember liking the fact that other family members used sedatives, so they were nice instead of being controlling.