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I can relate to some of the things you say here too, because i highly value logic when it comes to most things and situations, but those things and situations are usually things that do not fit into my value system. when it comes to things that are within my value system, i do not use logic at all. I just automatically know that such and such is wrong, and this and that is right. No logic can ever force me to change my opinion.
I thought I'd give a better picture of my problem
I hold logical thinking as the highest authority, but I have also been somewhat sensitive.
non-confrontational but bluntly honest or at the very least ambiguously honest.
I'll fight for what I think is right, but what I think is right is based on what makes the most sense, so a logical argument easily makes me question my perspective. I can 'see' what people are feeling a lot of the time. I love talking philosophies, but I love talking feelings. I love coming to understandings about ideas as much as I love coming to understandings about people. I have been cold and indifferent but also warm and affirming to those close to me and those I just met. I'm very pessimistic. I tend to smile a lot, but also become detached easily. I have a strong need for independence. I don't feel right if I haven't 'connected' with someone in long period of time. People in general bore me unless they're talking about something meaningful.
Being a male also makes me think I may have adopted T traits.
I test as a high T but I think it may just be because I have a strong value for it.
I'm fairly certain I'm enneagram 5 balanced wing
^^Yes, but what would these two approaches look like behaviorally, and how could you differentiate between them? A lot of times I find that the CFs really lack in specificity to the point that almost any behavior could be interpreted as belonging to one (or a combination) of the functions.
From my observations, INFPs generally question their type more often than INTPs.
It might be that you are INFP but with very strong Ti as well, or vice-versa. Actually, if that is the case, you would be INXP, with both strong Ti and Fi.
It's the same thing with me. I'd put myself into NFs group if I had to, but I do act more like NTP more of the time. Fi seems to be primary for me, but it's "shadowed" by thriving Ti. You know, Fi is like a foundation of house, while Ti is walls. So usually Ti is on the surface, but if really tricky or serious (-emotionally) situation arise, Fi emerges and extinguish the fire (or invigorate).
Like the Fi is an old wiseman and Ti is a vigorous youngster in me. Fi was first there, but now lets the youngster move the mountains. Fi now only watch, and interfere only when the "wisdom" is needed.
Does it make sense?
From my observations, INFPs generally question their type more often than INTPs.
Call me a sensor, but I want some examples (actually academic writing on many subjects usually demands examples for clarification). Cough 'em up, people! I feel like I'm the only person interested in hearing people's interpretations of their concrete experiences.
For me it has been the opposite. I've learned from F. I've gained understandings of it, like I had to use T to see F.
I would get self conscious at certain points in conversations. I didn't understand exactly why and I didn't have a lot of time to check through with Ti. I had to go back at a later time and think about exactly what it was that made me self conscious. When I went back I realized that something insignificantly insulting or something that went against my lifestyle had been said. I figure that Fi would be able to pinpoint it right away.
Im getting some sleep now, continue tomorrow