I was feeling a bit down and lonely yesterday, so I decided to go into town (Oxford) and visit as many pubs as I could.
As I came out of one pub and headed for another, a man smiled at me and said:
"Jesus loves you my friend."
"Who me?" I said, nearly stumbling over.
The guy gave me some leaflets from "The Redeemed Christian Church of God" with info about special events and programmes etc...
I hate religion - all religions. I spent a great deal of my life in a religion and I want NOTHING more to do with any of them.
But for a moment I felt like going with him to whatever meeting. Just so that there might be some people who would be interested in me, give me some attention, affection, and even love.
Don't laugh - I know it's so stupid.
Of course that's what attracts many people to religion - lost lonely and unhappy souls, looking for attention, to be part of a group and of course - the love of Jesus.
I too, have lost my faith recently.
I believe, however, that one can find meaning in life without religion. Philosophy is the answer, not submission to authority, regardless of how long it has been established for or how politically influential it is.
That is the thesis that I am arguing in the book that I am writing as we speak. Poverty of Conventionalism is the title. The basic purport is that reason puts us onto the path to spirituality and not convention. Every person is autonomous (able to discover spirituality, or what Kierkegaard called personal truth) in his/her own right and does not need religious authority for legitimation.
Spinoza (my avatar), one of the leading figures on the scene that I have set up in the book, and one of my salient philosophical influences once wrote in his diary 'when a Jew loses his faith, he loses his citizenship'. That was a subjective sentiment, as he never wanted to be part of the Jewish community and only wanted citizenship so it would be easier to get his ideas out to a larger audience. But, nonetheless it rang very true, and I can personally relate.
My co-author is a religious zealot, I have not told him about my recent loss of faith, but based on the writings I have sent him over the last few weeks and our private talks, its pretty obvious. Now he has this strange superstition about how I will be saved because I just can't believe in things that aren't supported with logic. And I just smiled at that.

I stood firmly by my principles to the very end and he made little effort to oppose that, as he likely knew this'd be useless.
I have another ENTP friend who is a senior pastor at a pentacoste church who was laughing all the way through as I turned his religion into an absurd joke of a kind. He even confessed that he is fascinated with chaos theories and all the contradictions in the bible, and just loves making a mess in the minds of SJs while passing himself off as a fellow fundamentalist. We connected a lot better after I confidently asserted that reason is the judge of all things and I am not going to take anything on faith, regardless of what heaven or hell matter we have going on.
I do think, though, that religion serves the primary purpose of establishing security in society. Inquisitive people have difficulty accepting faith and often struggle, much like Mother Theresa had, because they are haunted by demons of external obligations. It was a terrible burden to bear, and I've decided that it should be no more.
For all of those who have lost your faith and feel alieanted because of external social circumstances, I know of nothing better than going back to the internal principles that caused you to leave and standing by them fiercely and consistently. That sense of being true to yourself is always all the more rewarding than some hollow external gratifications you may come by.
I offer to publish my book (as a download I presume), on this forum as soon as I get the copyright. I think it may be off help to many of us here, as the problem of religious tyranny is a perennial issue in our society that has much afflicted INs. In the Faith of a Rationalist (the climax of the book), I argue that spirituality could be obtained with pure reason(founded on Spinoza's doctrine of Intellectual love of God) alone and religious convention is not only inadequate but stultifying to one's quest for meaning in life. In the chapter the follows next, the Basis of Christian morality, I have a critical exposition of the New Testament and what Biblical Ethics become in face of candid philosophical inquiry as well as evince to what extent the Institutional Church (conventionalism), has debauched their integrity. In the concluding chapter, I will give a thorough account of how a general intelligent person (one that many INs in our community could well identify with) can deal with the multitude (religious conventionalism), and how one can carry through life following their highly individualistic spiritual path. One that is insulated off religious orthodoxy and thoroughly devoted to the quest for the highest possible attunement with the inner being.
I will have the script completed by the end of November, at the latest.
(For those who are still with me on this one, that is managed to read this far in my post, here is the Outline of the Book) And in chapter 2, I believe I have concocted a very effective demolition of ethics of Biblical literalism that leaves us with no authority to be led by to salvation.
Preface
Chapter 1-Outline of conventional religious thought
Chapter 2-Why Religion needs philosophy
Chapter 3- Enemies of the church
Hume
Spinoza
Chapter 4-Why philosophy needs religion-Interplay of philosophy and religion
Chapter 5-Science and its relation to philosophy and religion
Chapter 6-On man's need for mysticism
Chapter 7-Problem of Evil
Chapter 8-Jung's inquiry into human nature
Chapter 9-Existentialism and Problem of Irrationalism
Chapter 10-Synthesis of Beauty and Truth
-Schopenhauer and Salvation through depth of feeling
Chapter 11-Theological-Scientific cosmology (1)
Chapter 12-Faith of a Rationalist and the true road to Salvation(2)
Chapter 13-Basis of Christian Morality
Chapter 14-Paul Tillich and emancipation of theology from religious orthodoxy
Chapter 15-Conclusion