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How frequent are your repetitive thoughts? Is it all the time? Do you feel they're like conversations you're having with yourself or more like various different thoughts, images that occur randomly? Does your brain get "stuck" on certain moments? <--I've noticed this happens to me a lot when something happens that is particularly emotional. But I also have anxiety and PTSD.
Hmmn, repetitive thoughts in a negative way definitely don't feel as if I am having a conversation with myself. It's more combined with 'panic' or anxiety when rejection sensitive dysphoria gets triggered. https://www.additudemag.com/adhd-and-obsessive-thoughts-too-clingy-insecure/
Negative repetitive thoughts are for me, mostly triggered by intense emotional reactions.
“Sometimes the working memory impairments of ADHD allow a momentary emotion to become too strong, flooding the brain with one intense emotion.â€
This article might also be interesting: https://www.additudemag.com/slideshows/adhd-emotions-understanding-intense-feelings/
'Luckily', this only occurs when I am somewhat close to someone but when I am not sure where I stand or if I feel that the relationship is falling apart. I truly flipped back then. Continuously/obsessively checking if that person had already messaged me and I just couldn't stop. It drove me crazy. Couldn't stop thinking about it either. It got so bad I even couldn't sleep anymore because of it and I started to use sleeping meds. (I stopped using them now and I can sleep like a normal person again, yay!)
For 'positive' thoughts... Hmn. I wouldn't know. I can't think of anything? It's not really a thought, it's just my general state of being; I 'think'/dream a lot. When I daydream I tend to 'replay' the same scene over and over again, just because I enjoy it.
2. Do your thoughts "stop" when you're focused? Does this depend on your level of interest in what you're focused on? Or are they still there at all times? Can you watch TV/movies normally? (I tend to get obsessive with TV and the internet as forms of stimulation, so I can always watch tv but if it's something boring or that I don't find interesting, I almost find it painful to stay and watch it. I also need subtitles to concentrate when watching anything on tv).
Nay. Just like EG explained it. I rarely watch movies unless with friends. It's very very hard to concentrate on a movie. When I watch something alone I press the pause and the 'reverse' button a lot. Though I do watch series from time to time. Books are more okay, though I sometimes catch myself reading... air? Idk how to explain it. :') It's that I am suddenly three pages further but I've no idea what I've just read. My mind 'disconnects' in some way and I start making up my own story in my head while I continue to 'read'.
I am not sure if I get the 'thought stop' (what it means). When I hyperfocus I am of course only dedicated to one subject and it's pretty hard to 'distract' me then. Though I rage through Google like a maniac to absorb as much information as possible lol. I rarely finish reading all the tabs I've opened. I might leave them open for a few days, sometimes even for weeks and months... But once that focus is over; I'll probably never get back to those tabs, oops.
3. Are there any of you on here that feel you don't have time blindness? Or you do, but you have found ways to manage it? Do you feel like you can get organized and remember appts? How do you do it? Does this change at work vs. at home?
I don't really feel like I have time blindness. I am usually quite aware of the hour, or I can at least guess very closely what hour it is. Mostly because I do have some vast 'routines' at certain hours. I do mess up the days from time to time tho.
(Ok ok I must admit, now that I am writing this I suddenly realize that it's already 12am.
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Appointments that I am used to; yes I remember them. Something new; I might forget.
4. What calms your mind?
WHAT. No okay, probably sports. Just going for walks and listening to music. When I am focused on creating something (drawing/painting/clay) and I am not being
all too perfectionistic- I can loose myself, I can let everything go and I actually feel calm and energized at the same time.
5. Do you always have a feeling that you have to be "on the go" or constantly doing something (but at times don't know what)? Or do you find yourself being more laidback and go with the flow?
Yes. Boredom. I always want to do 'something' but nothing is ever satisfying enough. When I am at school I might have this 'plan' to do x thing when I come home... When I come home, x thing suddenly doesn't interest me anymore. Then I get frustrated and annoyed because I was planning to do x thing but I didn't do it. ( x thing doesn't even have to be a necessity, just something I wanted to do)