None can match my skill at infiltration. Most people are idiots, and its simple to gather intel to destroy my enemies and the enemies of my superiors. Everybody has some sort of dirt on them, or some psychological weak point. It just takes a smiling face and a soft voice to draw it out sometimes.
To those I have not explicitly allied themselves with me through double binding contracts, all I can say is I’m slippery, so catch me if you can!
Im not scared of you.
I am concerned about you to some extent, and these posts like this... Im not sure what you are hoping to prove...
Yes life sucks. It sucks when things dont go exactly how we want them to. It sucks when we feel different- wrong, in some way. It sucks we cant fix everything.
But the answer isnt to give up on all goodness in the world. That is weak. That makes the world WORSE. And in my humble opinion, its cowardly. You dont just give up when things get hard.
In fact, NOT giving up- I think helps us feel better about ourselves. Helps us gain some self respect. In addition to helping the world be a TINY bit better- we improve our own lives too.
By trying. Really hard. All the time. You dont just get to give up on being a good person without having to realize- you are just running because you are scared. And there- is no prize- only disappointment- in being scared. Because its a weight that will hold over you- like a cancer- for a long time.
You are only hurting yourself.
So while Im a little disturbed by the messages you keep parroting...
But Im not scared of you. Because I know I have it in me- even if you DID do some random awful thing to me- to get through it. Im not defeated because things dont go my way, because bad things happen to me, ect. I dont WANT bad things to happen to me- I dont think anyone does.
But I can persevere and make the bad better. And I think... that might be something worth trying for you. Really looking at yourself and facing the things you dont like- instead of throwing in the towel when things get too hard.
Besides that- this thread isnt about you.
You have plenty of people trying to help you- still- in other threads. Please use those and let crystal have her thread. Listen. Try to really listen- and not to what is emotionally easiest. Get help. Dont lie to us. We want to help you but... its hard to help a person that cant be trusted to be honest.
Again. Only hurting yourself