After watching Carl Jung discuss Ni, I think some of my experiences that I attribute to imagination are Ni related.
I have a lot of life experiences that I am in the process of healing from, and one of my most effective therapies occurs for me when I'm in a hot tub of water. Striking imagery comes to me and my body responds in an involuntary manner. I've had a long history of chronic muscle tension and pain, and I get these vivid images that thin, blue, iridescent strands are leaving my muscles. Sometimes they depart quickly in a swarm and my muscles jerk heavily in response as they are letting go. It is a disturbing experience and I haven't gotten a good explanation medically, but I think it is a good thing that something is being released. I've also had striking imagery of an iridescent goo that is mostly pearly white with shimmers of all rainbow colors slowly melting through me, permeating every cell of my body, and that can also trigger the muscle releases. When I get overwhelmed, I end up in a small, white concrete or marble pond on a distant planet that has no other inhabitants except for me and one robot. The sky is an intense blue, the marble a bright white, and I am near a structure with strong geometric lines, but it is likely the only structure on the planet. I can feel the isolation, almost the fear of it, but also the safety of it.
I also become an embryo with no memories, good or bad, but just the peaceful darkness of unknowing. There are also glimmers of anticipation at being able to experience the sun, the sound of water, the sensation of running, etc. all again for the first time. I see everything in my life drifting away into a tunnel of darkness and I just let go indiscriminately. It is scary to let go of what could be good also, but now it feels necessary to let go of it all with no judgement on any of it, and then I see it slide away into the blackness of infinity.
That part that I bolded and made larger is something that I've heard about Ni, but am never quite certain how to relate to it. I think the introverted Judging functions (Ti and Fi) build up inner frameworks of reasoned associations in which you can make the judgment call on each new piece of data whether it fits the framework and should be accepted or it doesn't fit the framework and therefore not be accepted.
I don't think the perceiving functions operate in that manner. Se takes in all the sensations of the moment. Si takes in every experience, however it was presented in life, Ne takes in the unseen connections of the moment, and Ni internalizes the unseen connections in a more personal manner. I tend to feel as though Ni is a data dump that I wish to god I could reject at times. I wish I could reject parts of it, but life feels like an ongoing tidal wave of intangible, unverifiable information. I don't think Pi (introverted perception) has the advantage that Ji (introverted Judging) experiences in its ability to filter before data is internalized. It can only filter afterwards, but for myself (and I can only speak for myself) it feels like life constantly throws millions of puzzle pieces at me, so many that I am surrounded by mountains of these. I obsessively try to piece them together. Each time I find one that doesn't fit, I don't dare throw it away because it might fit later on. In the same way Si doesn't get to choose its life experiences, it doesn't choose the sensations that build its sense of normalcy and nostalgia, neither does Ni. Ni doesn't let you choose anything - it isn't a judging function. One must rely on their other judging function to deal with it. When Ni is the dominant function, then you deal with this ongoing tidal wave and you only wish something would filter it first, but no such luck.
The highlighted portion would be wrong use of Fe and Te in tandem with Ni, Ni perceives not judges is where I would see it at. Ni synthesizes so even accepts contradictory information, if it were to deny it, it's going further from reality.
My point was about
these "images" that come up. We assume, that in every thought processes, all functions are involved, including "undifferentiated" ones. In other words, there are judgments involved, determining whether the image or any inferences from it are "true or false [i.e. "an illusion"]" or "good or bad" (and I don't mean necessarily always an INFJ's "aux. Fe", "tert. Ti" or even "shadow Fi or Te"; all of which are sorts of partial "differentiations" of the eight function-attitudes). So what you are reading as judgments in that, that's not what I [nor Ben] are attributing to Ni.
The way I understand it now, backed up by your examples, is that
these images are coming up all the time. I basically tune them out, unless they happen to fit some external pattern I may be thinking of. So I never even thought of them as the products of one of these "functions", and hence why it took so long for me to really understand what Ni is.
For you, they'll come up like that, and naturally, they'll also come up when deliberately called to inform some data (like an existing pattern you're presented with), and hence, [actively] "search[ing] within".
This is what really needs clarification, for
this is the point where it's so easy to get thrown off (as to which function is which). I'll "look within" to
memory, for a fitting pattern, but that's really Si internalizing an Ne
external pattern. It's not the same as what you're describing that already comes up,
directly from within (seeming out of nowhere, not pulled from somewhere else), and not
conscious memory.
This further verifies Berens/Montoya's new terms "Realizing" and "Inquiring". Both Si and Ne end up relying more on memory, and thus also end up "inquiring" (asking questions) in order to either match to what's known, or look for other possibilities. Se on the other hand, simply takes whatever's there in the material world. Ni takes whatever comes up from the unconscious. Neither try to compare it with anything else (so again, it will be the judgment function that does that). So they both directly "realize" things.
So “conscious†(according to Jung) is whatever is sensory (material) and externally oriented (environmental). Internal (individual) is not really conscious, because you’re not perceiving it from the real world; it’s basically an image you’re bringing up yourself.
Se=â€consciousness of consciousness†(environmental [direct] material awareness)
Si=â€unconsciousness of consciousness†(individually referenced material awareness)
Ne=â€consciousness of unconsciousness†(environmentally referenced hypothetical awareness)
Ni=â€unconsciousness of unconsciousness†(individually conjured hypothetical awareness; and hence the hardest to understand or explain).
So both Ni and Se end up as “meta†forms; hence, a straight “realizingâ€.
If they hadn't come up with those terms, I may have just named Ne/Si in terms of "memory", and Se/Ni in terms of "meta" (which often gets associated with Ni alone, but Se fits the term in its more tangible way. I had tried "circumspective, meaning "looks around". I was on to the right idea, but had trouble naming the other tandems; if anyone remembers "prostatospective" [look directly at] I had considered for Se/Ni

).
I'm also thinking of another Ni/Ne blurring of the lines, when I'll often get negative intuitions, and then begin analyzing them, and seeing how they fit other external patterns. I believe the initial intuition is sometimes (at least) genuinely introverted (and often fitting the "Senex" role, usually involving some issue where I feel my ego is being negated, which is what that complex is about), but then when I begin sorting out what's what and how the patterns fit ones I'm familiar with (often writing it down in my own ponderings), I'm turning "without", and making it extraverted, (going from the more "critical" ego state to my natural "supporting" (aux.) one, and with ego's dom. Ti determining "true/false", of course).
This is another thing that can throw someone off.