I've always kind of had this purpose type of feeling pushing me, like something in my future was going to blow-up, go somewhere, and that I needed to make that happen.
This isn't the same as having a "mission". I don't feel as if I have some kind of... assignment to complete, or some kind of criteria to fufill. I think I was just born to do something and do it really, really well. Or a few things, I'm not sure.
I think one thing I feel I am somewhat forced to do by my own needs is master communication through music. I want to study music untill I really understand exactly how it works so I can use it to make songs that communicate something very well with both the music and words accompanying it. It's mostly selfish though, just a way for me to express myself. If I could get inside the music and inside myself and make them work together... that would help me sleep at night, we'll say that. Its not a mission though, its more like a quest, because its searching for something. I don't know if I have some "higher purpose", but thats what I'd like to do with my life, or its one thing I'd like to do with my self at some point.
How do I stay motivated with the music? Well, I love playing music and thinking about it, so it's quite easy. Its also a lot of hard work to actually learn how to play music -scales, chords, and how they interact, theres a lot to learn and think about. I like hard work though when its about something I love. One of my favourite lines from a song ever is "I never sleep, cause sleep is the cousin of death", from Nas' New York State of Mind. I take this to mean I never stop working to make something happen, to make thoughts reality, because if I do it would be like death, it would be stagnant.
I don't know what I'll do for a career though...