Elfboy
Certified Sausage Smoker
- Joined
- Nov 26, 2008
- Messages
- 9,625
- MBTI Type
- ENFP
- Enneagram
- 5w4
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/sp
I've sworn I was Sp/Sx for the longest time (I'm about 90% sure I'm Sp/Sx, and it's definitely the type I'd like to be because I think it's the best), but I've really been going through a painful transformation recently and realized I had a ton of repressed emotions including
- feeling old/fear of getting old/feeling like I'm running out of time to find a partner (which is fucking ridiculous. I just turned 21)
- loneliness (often severe)
- the fact that I am a total affection whore. in fact, if I had my way, I'd probably spend ~3 hour a day on just snuggling
- I have a tendency to get attached to people way to quickly, so I've repressed this urge in the past rather than deal with it directly
- occasional feelings of envy towards people in successful relationships
- if I care about you, I am a tremendously affectionate person, but I repress the hell out of this because in the past I've seen it as a vulnerability (and it is, being rejected by someone you've shown intense affection to is fucking painful)
apart from this
- my communication style is much more intense and expressive than most Sp doms
- I'm bold, attention seeking and, as you all know, quite a diva
- I listen to dramatic, passionate music for hours at a time, often listening to the same song over and over again
- people seem to think women like Madonna, Lady Gaga etc are freaks/extremist but to me they just seem normal. I would totally be that outrageous, fiery and dress that expressively if I had the money
- I've realized just how much I'm willing to do for love. these past few weeks I've fought urges to go fly out and meet people I'd just met online a week previously (real Sp dom...NOT). if I met a guy, got to know him for awhile, had good chemistry and the circumstances were ideal, I'd have no problem moving in with him in just a couple of weeks
- ideally I would not think about money at all. I'm thinking about it so much so that when I'm older I can be like "screw it! I don't care!"
however, I still think I'm Sp/Sx for the following reasons
- I am an ENFP 7, that by itself is a pretty sexual type
- I relate to 100% of Riso/Hudson's Sp dom 7 descriptions (though I also related to about 70% of the Sx dom 7 description)
- I'm fairly introverted and introspective for a 7 (like an Sp/Sx)
- I tend to put financial matters ahead of everything else
- I'm sure that, regardless of instinctual variant, the majority of 21 year old, desperat,e twink hungry, homosexual males would probably relate to most of what I just said
PS: and just for fun, you can vote on my main enneagram type if you think I'm mistyped (I'm pretty set on 7w6, this part is just fun)
- feeling old/fear of getting old/feeling like I'm running out of time to find a partner (which is fucking ridiculous. I just turned 21)
- loneliness (often severe)
- the fact that I am a total affection whore. in fact, if I had my way, I'd probably spend ~3 hour a day on just snuggling
- I have a tendency to get attached to people way to quickly, so I've repressed this urge in the past rather than deal with it directly
- occasional feelings of envy towards people in successful relationships
- if I care about you, I am a tremendously affectionate person, but I repress the hell out of this because in the past I've seen it as a vulnerability (and it is, being rejected by someone you've shown intense affection to is fucking painful)
apart from this
- my communication style is much more intense and expressive than most Sp doms
- I'm bold, attention seeking and, as you all know, quite a diva
- I listen to dramatic, passionate music for hours at a time, often listening to the same song over and over again
- people seem to think women like Madonna, Lady Gaga etc are freaks/extremist but to me they just seem normal. I would totally be that outrageous, fiery and dress that expressively if I had the money
- I've realized just how much I'm willing to do for love. these past few weeks I've fought urges to go fly out and meet people I'd just met online a week previously (real Sp dom...NOT). if I met a guy, got to know him for awhile, had good chemistry and the circumstances were ideal, I'd have no problem moving in with him in just a couple of weeks
- ideally I would not think about money at all. I'm thinking about it so much so that when I'm older I can be like "screw it! I don't care!"
however, I still think I'm Sp/Sx for the following reasons
- I am an ENFP 7, that by itself is a pretty sexual type
- I relate to 100% of Riso/Hudson's Sp dom 7 descriptions (though I also related to about 70% of the Sx dom 7 description)
- I'm fairly introverted and introspective for a 7 (like an Sp/Sx)
- I tend to put financial matters ahead of everything else
- I'm sure that, regardless of instinctual variant, the majority of 21 year old, desperat,e twink hungry, homosexual males would probably relate to most of what I just said
PS: and just for fun, you can vote on my main enneagram type if you think I'm mistyped (I'm pretty set on 7w6, this part is just fun)