Ok Break time is over, I'm back.
So ..Whats the deal? He's still in the back of your mind or are you over with it?
I think you need a change of landscape - find someone else, someone that truly cares and is worthy of receiving your flowery letters and affection. The dope you previously dated has serious issues and needs to patch his ego before it leaks out on people like it did to you. Just like job interviews - one candidate has really good +'s but yet severe flaws. So you move on to the next candidate, weigh the +'s with the -'s and obviously its could be a better match than prior one.
So, like I always say - the past is written in stone, if your trying to rewirite over stone engravements I wish you the best luck.
But you can move forward, advance in life, find true happiness with a better person - and forget the past, its stone - its made to weigh you down not lift you up.
The best revenge is no revenge - It just shows the other person that their attempt to hurt you was sabatoged.
If you stop caring, he'll wonder "hey, wtf? didn't you just love me?" You'll say "nope, I just traded it for someone better than a dope like you"
Then he'll wonder - "wow, she's happy with someone else, she doesn't care, I realize she's a good person and now I'm the looser"
Love is a mind game, learn to play the game.