Chimerical
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My friends are in shock when they discover that anyone would dislike me. A lot of people I run into assume I must be gay when they find out I'm not with a girl.
I don't get it. Why don't people like me?
I was with my friends scar and preston today and it was mentioned that a lot of people just plain hate me. They had a shocked expression and didn't know why. They mentioned that I'm never rude nor mean. I just step up and hold my ground if pushed, yet I don't even push back, so to speak. But I go out of my way to be kind to a lot of people.
I really don't get it myself. Most people look at me in shock when they hear I'm not with a girl or that I would even remotely have girl issues at all. My friends don't seem to get it, and they see what I say when I'm around girls. They see what I do, how I act, the whole thing and just don't get why no one likes me.
Neither do I.
Same with girls who're just friends of mine. They don't get why other girls don't like me. And they see what I'm like, and what I say when I'm talking to girls and just don't seem to get it.
I've studied various social psychology, applied it, nothing. Tried being myself, nothing. Gave up and just lived my life without attempting to get a girlfriend, nothing. No matter what I do, I am no liked. If I try to be liked, nope. If I try to be hated, yeah I'm hated. If I just don't try for either and am just doing whatever, still hated. No matter what people fucking hate me.
And this world is too fucking socially oriented.
So here I am, waiting for it to end. One day I'll die and wont have to worry about all the nonsense anymore. I've tried to enjoy the live I have. There's always someone there to ruin things, there's always those fucking emotions and feelings towards others. Loneliness and such. I don't want to feel.
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I don't think anyone really understands the nonsense I deal with. Why I'm always trying to figure out what the fuck is going on. this world is socially oriented and everyone hates me.
I don't get it. Why don't people like me?
I was with my friends scar and preston today and it was mentioned that a lot of people just plain hate me. They had a shocked expression and didn't know why. They mentioned that I'm never rude nor mean. I just step up and hold my ground if pushed, yet I don't even push back, so to speak. But I go out of my way to be kind to a lot of people.
I really don't get it myself. Most people look at me in shock when they hear I'm not with a girl or that I would even remotely have girl issues at all. My friends don't seem to get it, and they see what I say when I'm around girls. They see what I do, how I act, the whole thing and just don't get why no one likes me.
Neither do I.
Same with girls who're just friends of mine. They don't get why other girls don't like me. And they see what I'm like, and what I say when I'm talking to girls and just don't seem to get it.
I've studied various social psychology, applied it, nothing. Tried being myself, nothing. Gave up and just lived my life without attempting to get a girlfriend, nothing. No matter what I do, I am no liked. If I try to be liked, nope. If I try to be hated, yeah I'm hated. If I just don't try for either and am just doing whatever, still hated. No matter what people fucking hate me.
And this world is too fucking socially oriented.
So here I am, waiting for it to end. One day I'll die and wont have to worry about all the nonsense anymore. I've tried to enjoy the live I have. There's always someone there to ruin things, there's always those fucking emotions and feelings towards others. Loneliness and such. I don't want to feel.
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I don't think anyone really understands the nonsense I deal with. Why I'm always trying to figure out what the fuck is going on. this world is socially oriented and everyone hates me.
