Anyone else feel this way?
You know, why do I need an online test to tell me who I am?
What the he**?
Why is it that I often feel that I am being someone else, and not just being me? (which is?)
I mean I have some pretty concrete ideas and ideals, but I have to keep reminding myself, "you see you are 1) xyz 2) abc, etc"
Why, why?
I've definitely felt this way at times.
As for the online tests...at least for myself, at times in the past they've provided me with a window and an 'explanation' as to why I am the way I am, and provided a group I felt I could belong to, and on the negative side, provided me with a scapegoat/excuse for my behavior, as if it was something set in stone that was unchangeable...but I only think it's unchangeable if you want it to be unchangeable. People can always work on themselves.
Then sometimes I realize that none of it really matters anyway, and perhaps identity is something that can shift over time, as you see fit. It doesn't have to be a solid rock that is constantly the same, and that's rigid - it can be molded. And that's something that everyone's going to have their own opinion on - is identity/personality something you want to preserve, and do you want set traits that always remain as is, that are easily definable and that you can always go back to, or are you ok with modifying things as you go and being ok with not having a strong sense of self, in the "I am X, Y, and Z, all of the time." Actually I think it's a bit of both -- there are things about ourselves that will always remain the same, and that will never change, but I think there's more room for flexing than we give ourselves credit for, or allow ourselves to achieve. Personality systems can be great frameworks for giving you general traits in who you might me, but they can be limiting if you hold too hard onto those definitions. Maybe it's OK to have a mishmash of contradictions - that's human. The only reason it seems to be NOT OK is when you try to match that up with one of 16, or 20, or whatever, systems. That's the only time you start questioning.
As for often feeling you're being someone else or not being true to yourself, well....yeah, that comes and goes for me. Probably depends on how prone you are to accommodating others in real life. I have the accommodating tendency, which now that I'm aware of try to keep in check. So yeah, at times I'll suddenly realize that I'm not being 'ME' as much as I want to be, or should be, and then I take a step back and reassess everything and find more solidity again.