How do you know what attitude among people is right or wrong?
I don’t know, I just do? There are many things things people do in my culture that are considered normal but that make my skin crawl, so I believe my values are self generated. I am however, forever baffled by how people fail to see how unacceptable disrespect and lack of care is. I think some things don’t have to be taught.
What does moral mean? What is immoral? Does your understanding correlate with the others?
It means something that is accepted by society, and immoral is the opposite. My views on this are again, very different from my country’s but I’m not sure how different they are from westerners.
How can you evaluate the correctness of your own understanding?
I usually just know I am. A part of me does question this knowing sometimes, and then another part starts providing an explanation usually using evidence but is quickly shut up by that “knowing†part and I just accept that knowledge. It used to unsettle me before which is why I think that “explaining†part of me was created.
Somebody is giving you a negative attitude – what is your reaction?
It depends on how far they go. I usually respond in kind, but I might just cut them off completely and write them off my list.
Could you show your own negative attitude toward someone else? If so, how? Could you give a person the silent treatment? How easily do you forgive people?
Always have but of course I’m reasonable, there is a time and place for everything. Sometimes the most you can do is to be really cold. Yes, I can give the cold shoulder. As for the last part I’m like a Dementor: it is not in my nature to be forgiving. Of course we’re talking about serious offences here (as I perceive them), I don’t sweat the small stuff. It it’s something minor I just scold the person and teach them better.
"Whole world does not cost one tear of child" – how do you understand this phrase? Do you agree with this opinion?
It’s a ridiculous saying. All the tears of all children aren’t worth the world, that’s how it is. I hate this children cult we have nowadays, it’s poisoning.
Is it acceptable to express emotions? Give examples of inappropriate expression of emotions.
It’s what makes a human, otherwise you are a thing or an alien. Even animals have emotions, because like humans, they are spirited. Inappropriate examples are crying when somebody intimidates or humiliates you, displaying jealousy in the presence of somebody you consider a threat, basically giving people power over you.
Can you use negative emotions? In what situations?
Of course, as volition to make things go your way or even to motivate yourself.
How do you express negative emotions? What does it look like? What do others think about it?
I’ve always been told I’m very scary when I’m mad, but I don’t know what it’s like, since I can’t see myself. And people don’t specify, though they look scared while saying it.
Shallow emotions – what does it mean? Are there any other emotions?
To me they are passing emotions which don’t leave a lasting impression on my overall mood or psyche.
What are right or wrong emotions?
This concept does not apply here. An emotion can be damaging or counter-productive, but not wrong.
Can you change the emotional state of yourself? Of others? To what side – positive or negative?
Yes to all, which is why I’m a good actress.
What does it mean to "pour out your emotions"? How does it happen? Does your internal emotional state correlate with what you show externally?
I guess it’s when someone says something they’ve been holding in for a long time, or cries after holding stress in. I don’t do this because I express my feelings quite freely in general. I know how to keep a poker face or even act, but never for long periods because it’s so displeasing. Unless I’m doing it willingly and for fun, in which cases it can last for longer.
Do you track what mood you are in throughout the day? Do you notice the mood of others?
No, I’m usually not too aware of it unless others comment on it or if it’s really bad. Yes, I notice the slightest change in people’s moods can’t help it really and I hate it.
Do you like surprises?
Generally hate them, they strip me of my agency.
How people change? How do you feel about those changes? Can others see the changes?
For many reasons and sometimes without it. It depends on whether these changes era advantageous to me or not, doesn’t it? Most people see others as static, that’s the most common mistake. They somehow expect people to stay the same and fail to notice the signs that they are changing.
Is it true that whatever happens is only for the best?
Of course not, it’s stupid to think so.
What do you think of horoscopes, fortune telling etc.? Do you believe in luck, lucky fortuity?
I’m very mystical but also very sceptic. I believe 200% in magic but 5% in people, so no horoscopes for example, because the zodiac system was built by humans with na agenda in mind. Lady Luck loves me, so of course I know she exists.
Can you forecast events? Is it even real?
Absolutely, if your channels are opened and you have a gift. I have predictive dreams myself.
What is time? How do you feel time? Can you "kill" time? How?
Na illusion, the biggest trick played on humanity. Yes, time is elastic and you can do what you want it it except reverse it (on your own).
Is it easy for you to wait for some important event? What if you don’t know when it is supposed to happen?
If I feel too strongly about it and I’m not sure of its occurance, then I can’t wait, I have no patience. But if I’m certain it’s coming to pass, then I can wait because I have faith.
Do you need help creating forecasts and determining how something will end? Do you trust those forecasts?
No, I help others in this because it’s in my nature and I’m nearly always right. Yes, I trust them because experience has taught me to.
Are you normally late? How do you react if someone is late?
Almost never and I won’t tolerate it either.
Imagine the situation where you agreed to meet with someone. Your feelings and actions:
a) 20 minutes before the meeting starts, b) 5 minutes before the meeting starts, c) it is time for the meeting to start, but the person is not here, d) 20 minutes after the meeting start time and the person is not here, e) more time and the person is still not here…
Before it starts I usually walk around exploring the area or read something/check the net. I’ll wait for 15 minutes max if the meeting is important, then I’ll call the person. If they can’t be reached I’ll leave. I don’t need to mention that unless they have a very good reason for keeping me waiting, I’ll just never agree to meet then again.
Is there a meaning of life? In what? Is it the same for everybody?
Of course that is, everything in the world, no matter how small and irrelevant i may seem, has meaning, it’s all connected. The meaning of life itself is universal, but each personal can attribute a meaning to their individual existence if they so wish. Like what is their purpose/role in this scheme.
What should be done so people can be happy?
Universal happiness is actually quite easily achieved, it’s just that there is no interest in it’s implementation because the system runs on human misery and desperation. If people are told the truth and are allowed to be themselves in their most genuine form then there would be no causes for unhappiness. But for that to happen, the world must be purged of anything masquerading as human.
When you meet a stranger, what can you say about them right away? How do you know what this person is all about? Does it take long to understand someone's talents?
A lot of things: What kind of being they are and what kind of energy they posses (so speaking in plain terms, their very nature), are they entirely there, are they aware of their purpose in life...and of curse more superficial things anyone with eyes can see, like if they care about their presentation and if they are pleasing socially speaking etc.
I don’t know how I know these things I just do, I’ve always have I’m told. People who shouldn’t be here or whom are in severe need of cure/reform have caused very strong reactions in me my whole life. Sometimes my whole skin crawls and I can’t stand being in the same room as them, but usually I can keep my cool and just get it over with. I try not to get in contact with them ever again or at least not stay in their presence for long periods of time.
Remember an interesting person and call out 5-6 qualities you think are interesting in them. What makes an interesting person? Are you an interesting person? Why? What if someone calls you "boring" and "not interesting"?
1. Is artistically very talented even though people debate on this here where I live, since they think talent is something that should follow certain “rulesâ€. It’s a ridiculous notion of course;
2. Is very brave in that he not only communicates his views on our society and his wishes for the future in his art, but he is a living embodiment of human self expression. I believe this is one of the reasons people are so drawn to him. Unfortunately he must do things that go against his nature too keep up appearances for now (and that costs him much sleep), but he does it for a higher purpose and longs for total freedom like me,
3. Is very pure even though his outward appearance and some of his past mistakes may not support this fact. In his heart he is a child, which makes me want to protect him since this kind of spirit at his age is so rare. He really just means well to everyone and is capable of gigantic unconditional love,
4. Is very generous both in work and in friendship, but also knows how to protect his interests and of those he cares for, he can juggle many things at once even it sometimes costs him a great deal psychologically,
5. Knows how to use his anger to fuel his visions and endeavours, when the world is against him his negative feelings of hurt, sadness and frustration turn into things that can inspire other people to forge their own path and challenge the system, he has also survived many controversies without losing face (and probably will again in the future),
6. Is however, very weak for love and in this area, he’s a walking disaster. Can’t let go of something that never really was what he idealized to be, and will never be even that again. I list this because to me is such a huge contradiction to his otherwise so independent and self reliant being.
What makes na interesting person is subjective, of course, though there are exceptions like the person I described, everyone thinks he’s interesting even if they hate him. Yes, I am for sure a very interesting person I can say with confidence, because I cause the same reaction on people. They might act as if they hate me, but then why are they so obsessed with me? Boring people are people who have nothing of interest to contribute to a conversation or nothing that makes you want to figure them out.
What opinions, from people who know you, seem: a) fair; b) not fair; c) hurtful; d) strange.
a) That I am complicated and difficult. I agree with the first part since I can’t make sense (explain or somehow classify) who I am myself. As for the second part I think they could think so because I go so against the norm so they can’t “deal†with me, which is true. I’m not a thing to be dealt with anyway.
b) That I live a charmed life and that is unfair that I receive special treatment where I work.
c) When they made rumours about me saying I did something horrible, when in reality not only this was a fabricated lie but also something I was a victim of myself once. This is the kind of unfairness that gets to me, being accused of acts I myself condene.
d) This is more based on their actions then words, but that I somehow send signals that I’m unaware of? After studying the Enneagram I think it might have to do with my instinctual variants, truth is it can freak me out sometimes though I’m mostly prepared for it now.
Do you fantasize? What kind of fantasies do you have?
All the time and specially to kill some time. They Always revolve around the same thing, my career future and how I want to impact the world with it, helping people free themselves from their shackles. I will sometimes play out revenge scenarios against people who have somehow offended me.
What qualities should a person have to be successful and why?
The question itself is problematic, since things are seldom what they “should†be, aren’t them? So many worthless people at the top of the pyramid prove it. The system is corrupt to its core so it’s useless to think about it.
What is more important in life – to be a good person or be a successful
Obviously to be a good person, success means nothing in the great scheme of things, it won’t save you by itself.
Is a good person always successful? If not, then why?
If their goodness is paired with intelligence then yes, they win the game of life. Because bad people will walk off stage with nothing, everything they did was in vain and only served to dig themselves a ditch they’ll rot in for all eternity.