INFtha14
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- Joined
- Dec 9, 2008
- Messages
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- MBTI Type
- INFP
- Enneagram
- 6w7
- Instinctual Variant
- sp/sx
To be alive...
Is to see the most beautiful and the most tragic.
Is to just allow yourself to feel. Feel it all. Feel the pain. Feel the joy. Feel the love. Open your heart
. Whatever you do... don't hide it away. Life is too short for that.
Is to be vulnerable. Let people in. Let them see you hurt. Let them see you love, feel and how close you are to exploding from the love/gratitude felt inside hehe.
Is to be extreme and never in the middle. Go all out or go home ;D.
Is to love deeply and as unconditionally as you feel is possible.
Is to make a internal vow that when that right person does come along to just follow your gut and heart with a splash of reason.
Is to love. Love your friends... family... strangers. I long for that right person for me that I *and they XD* "decide" to devote the rest of my life to them. I would be willing to sacrifice as I would have that be my main priority. Not jealousy... possessiveness... fear... passiveness... unacceptance of who I am.
At least weeks session she somehow got on to talking about how that's why before parents have kids they need to be willing to make the sacrifice. As with as much respect to my mother she wasn't willing to make that sacrifice for me or any of kids. When It came time for normal milestones (license permit/license test/getting a car/being there for said child... they were very bitter and conditional about it).
Well for me I know how it feels to feel like I'm just a burden. Someday if I have kids I won't just accept that lightly. I will make sure that I am emotionally/physically/spiritually ready to sacrifice, commit to put them first. I don't want to make children feel the way I felt. It really messed with me and made me feel like I had to fend for myself. This goes with a partner too. Before I seriously commit someday I got to work this stuff out. I want to be ready and without bitterness, conditionality on my love.
Maybe rough from what I'm sort of already seeing my soon to be married BFF with her fiance. I'm learning what marriage really is. It's the real deal. You got to be willing to give it your all. Marriage is not some on the fence "gig". I'm sure as someday when I do find that person marriage won't be a walk in the park. But if they are the right person and things line up. Take our time... feel each other out. develop trust with our vulnerabilities marriage would be a worthwhile thing. That's a good start for me atleast.
There has to be a time for me and my space first. Then when I feel I'm ready for that true devotion/commitment to another I will give it everything I got.
Heh... of course life is meant to be fun too
. Can't forget that little nugget. Doesn't have to be all serious rawrzness. What else to we have besides this moment anyhow? Do we really ever "have" anything beside memories and the awesome feelings associated with them? Our memories of our loved ones that changed and continue to change our lives? The memories of wonderful transformative experiences.
Enjoy life... don't get too hung up on the future and goals. Life is precious. Sad truth but one of these days my life will flash before my eyes. No matter what... everyday I make a vow to ME that I will not take one day for granted. I will spend time with my loved ones. I will take the time to enjoy the very things that mean so much to me 
.
I wouldn't of been able to say this so assuredly a few years ago but... I'm a forever kind of women, friend and person. (that's what I aspire towards and I see myself turning more and more into this http://www.doityourself.com/stry/colorblue. So are you coming? LOL. My way of making a call to a soulmate *whoever they may be... the universe has got this baby under control XD* LOL.
Personally I think I'm on my way to getting there. Actually something in me feels that something is clicking into place emotionally/level of confidence and maturity.
*hehe all this from a awesometastic music performance.
RIP JEFF HEALEY.
Is to see the most beautiful and the most tragic.
Is to just allow yourself to feel. Feel it all. Feel the pain. Feel the joy. Feel the love. Open your heart
. Whatever you do... don't hide it away. Life is too short for that. Is to be vulnerable. Let people in. Let them see you hurt. Let them see you love, feel and how close you are to exploding from the love/gratitude felt inside hehe.
Is to be extreme and never in the middle. Go all out or go home ;D.
Is to love deeply and as unconditionally as you feel is possible.
Is to make a internal vow that when that right person does come along to just follow your gut and heart with a splash of reason.
Is to love. Love your friends... family... strangers. I long for that right person for me that I *and they XD* "decide" to devote the rest of my life to them. I would be willing to sacrifice as I would have that be my main priority. Not jealousy... possessiveness... fear... passiveness... unacceptance of who I am.
At least weeks session she somehow got on to talking about how that's why before parents have kids they need to be willing to make the sacrifice. As with as much respect to my mother she wasn't willing to make that sacrifice for me or any of kids. When It came time for normal milestones (license permit/license test/getting a car/being there for said child... they were very bitter and conditional about it).
Well for me I know how it feels to feel like I'm just a burden. Someday if I have kids I won't just accept that lightly. I will make sure that I am emotionally/physically/spiritually ready to sacrifice, commit to put them first. I don't want to make children feel the way I felt. It really messed with me and made me feel like I had to fend for myself. This goes with a partner too. Before I seriously commit someday I got to work this stuff out. I want to be ready and without bitterness, conditionality on my love.
Maybe rough from what I'm sort of already seeing my soon to be married BFF with her fiance. I'm learning what marriage really is. It's the real deal. You got to be willing to give it your all. Marriage is not some on the fence "gig". I'm sure as someday when I do find that person marriage won't be a walk in the park. But if they are the right person and things line up. Take our time... feel each other out. develop trust with our vulnerabilities marriage would be a worthwhile thing. That's a good start for me atleast.
There has to be a time for me and my space first. Then when I feel I'm ready for that true devotion/commitment to another I will give it everything I got.
Heh... of course life is meant to be fun too
. Can't forget that little nugget. Doesn't have to be all serious rawrzness. What else to we have besides this moment anyhow? Do we really ever "have" anything beside memories and the awesome feelings associated with them? Our memories of our loved ones that changed and continue to change our lives? The memories of wonderful transformative experiences.Enjoy life... don't get too hung up on the future and goals. Life is precious. Sad truth but one of these days my life will flash before my eyes. No matter what... everyday I make a vow to ME that I will not take one day for granted. I will spend time with my loved ones. I will take the time to enjoy the very things that mean so much to me
. I wouldn't of been able to say this so assuredly a few years ago but... I'm a forever kind of women, friend and person. (that's what I aspire towards and I see myself turning more and more into this
http://www.doityourself.com/stry/colorblue. So are you coming? LOL. My way of making a call to a soulmate *whoever they may be... the universe has got this baby under control XD* LOL. Personally I think I'm on my way to getting there. Actually something in me feels that something is clicking into place emotionally/level of confidence and maturity.
*hehe all this from a awesometastic music performance. RIP JEFF HEALEY.
