INFtha14
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- Joined
- Dec 9, 2008
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- MBTI Type
- INFP
- Enneagram
- 6w7
- Instinctual Variant
- sp/sx
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Hmm...
What I love most about myself? I love that I'm persistent in my search for answers. That I'm open minded. That I'm level headed. I've got a whole lot of courage/inner strength and I really appreciate this part of myself. Accepting. Understanding. I love being together and emotionally sound. That I'm always happy, positive, energetic and uplifting. That people see me as authentic/real.
What would be the negative opposite? Lazy? Close-minded/narrow minded. Judgemental.
Weak/vulnerable perhaps. That I wouldn't be able to defend/stand up/take care of myself. Needy. Clingy. Possessive. Rigid ( I do notice rigid/close-minded/needy folks grate on me. Not realistic (for levelheaded)*So according to this, that is my shadow*. The opposite of together/emotionally sound would be depressed/hurting/falling apart at the seams. I have hid that part of myself very well. I think this ties with vulnerability, I don't like being seen as not capable of taking care of my "lot". I remember one time when someone in my family suggested that I might not be able to handle something. I said " I am NOT WEAK!". I took it really personal. Perhaps I was denying that of me that is just that, weak yet strong, vulnerable yet capable. For always being happy, I'd say sad,letting people see I'm not always
. Sometimes I'm 
, :steam:, 
, :chicken:, , or 
(lol). I get down. I get negative. I get sick and tired of things. I get fed up, discouraged as well. I can be pretty bitchy if the mood is right lol (especially at certain times of the month/bad days "Everybody duck and cover, run for your liiiiivvves!!! Dots is experiencing the "it".. For authenticity I would absolutely abhor if people caught me being fake/inauthentic/not honest with myself and others.
What is the gift of being judgemental?
I'd say for me. The gift of being judgemental would be when I really needed to seperate myself from people that are just not good for me (Negative/not so supportive when I really needed it most. Clingy. Too judgemental themselves of my decisions for my life hence not supportive. They just were not accepting of my own life path/choices. It's this time to myself that allowed me to start reflecting on myself. To see things for myself.
What is the gift of being (emotionally also, Vulnerable/Weak?
Bonds strengthen. I let people in instead of running away. Thus hiding the fact I may need someone. I can't do this all on my own. The gift is really I bring down the walls/ego I have around my heart and let people inside that area. Let them see me weak. Let them see me at my lowest. Allowing myself to feel safe with this part of myself. (this will take awhile).
What is the gift of being Needy?
Being needy has allowed me to develop a stronger more solid bond based on communication with my best friend :-D. Also led me to some lessons about how to better deal with anger.
What is the gift of being non-realistic?Following my gut sensation and honoring it. Saved me alot of hassel when I have used it correctly. Honoring the vision I had/have inside of how things could be and how I can have an impact by honoring that gut sensation really.
What is the gift of being possessive?Helped with my friendship LOL.
What is the gift of being clingy?
Helped with my friendship, again.
Where in my life would it be good for me to be more vulnerable?
With my friendships. In the past, with relationships.
I always got on the defensive whenever I felt like I'd open myself up only for what I long for and my ideals not to be accepted/respected. This is where I'm grateful for my rigidity though on a sidenote as I didn't sacrifice what made me, me. Perhaps I should of addressed how important it was to me and that their support for me and my life path means alot. It actually hurts when I saw them respond to my goals when asked about them with a look of disappointment. That rigidity allowed me to stand up and say "no" where it mattered. Got to learn let people in, be vulerable. Feelings are a good thing. Letting people see how I feel and to let that wall down, will open lines of communication.
I find with one friend it's really hard to accept her as she's really critical/nosey/not respectful of boundaries/sometimes I get annoyed with her apparent needyness in always seeking everyones approval. I get annoyed when she my BFF's mom "mom" for some reason. I think it's cause she seems fake to me. Like she's doing it just to kiss some butt. Like she has a neice now and all of a sudden wants to bond with me as an "Aunt".
Woah... woah woah slow down. Hold on here. I need some space till I can even think about letting this person back in. They were so insensitive when I was going through the beginning stages post father passing. They were just putting their opinions into my life too much. I think this is a lesson in "giving second chances/forgiveness". Maybe that's what this friend is here to teach me. She rubs me the wrong way the most :steam:, so much so I don't even talk to her anymore. She must be a blackhole of my shadow side
. I guess with my friends wedding coming up in a year and a half/plans leading up to it will see what happens. .
I just need to make baby steps. I'm not loving/accepting enough to let her in right now. Besides she in the honest to goodness truth brings me down positive wise. Right now I'm not strong enough to handle someone else who is also needing someone to be strong for them (maybe i could use that as a way to exchange vulnerability. Not ready with this specific person yet though). I can't even be strong for myself to handle someone like this "friend".
Well that's all for now. My emotional brain is exhausted already LOL. Nothing like a little shadow indulgement on a beautiful saturday morning
.
Hmm...
What I love most about myself? I love that I'm persistent in my search for answers. That I'm open minded. That I'm level headed. I've got a whole lot of courage/inner strength and I really appreciate this part of myself. Accepting. Understanding. I love being together and emotionally sound. That I'm always happy, positive, energetic and uplifting. That people see me as authentic/real.
What would be the negative opposite? Lazy? Close-minded/narrow minded. Judgemental.
Weak/vulnerable perhaps. That I wouldn't be able to defend/stand up/take care of myself. Needy. Clingy. Possessive. Rigid ( I do notice rigid/close-minded/needy folks grate on me. Not realistic (for levelheaded)*So according to this, that is my shadow*. The opposite of together/emotionally sound would be depressed/hurting/falling apart at the seams. I have hid that part of myself very well. I think this ties with vulnerability, I don't like being seen as not capable of taking care of my "lot". I remember one time when someone in my family suggested that I might not be able to handle something. I said " I am NOT WEAK!". I took it really personal. Perhaps I was denying that of me that is just that, weak yet strong, vulnerable yet capable. For always being happy, I'd say sad,letting people see I'm not always
. Sometimes I'm , :steam:, , :chicken:, , or (lol). I get down. I get negative. I get sick and tired of things. I get fed up, discouraged as well. I can be pretty bitchy if the mood is right lol (especially at certain times of the month/bad days "Everybody duck and cover, run for your liiiiivvves!!! Dots is experiencing the "it".. For authenticity I would absolutely abhor if people caught me being fake/inauthentic/not honest with myself and others.What is the gift of being judgemental?
I'd say for me. The gift of being judgemental would be when I really needed to seperate myself from people that are just not good for me (Negative/not so supportive when I really needed it most. Clingy. Too judgemental themselves of my decisions for my life hence not supportive. They just were not accepting of my own life path/choices. It's this time to myself that allowed me to start reflecting on myself. To see things for myself.
What is the gift of being (emotionally also, Vulnerable/Weak?
Bonds strengthen. I let people in instead of running away. Thus hiding the fact I may need someone. I can't do this all on my own
. The gift is really I bring down the walls/ego I have around my heart and let people inside that area. Let them see me weak. Let them see me at my lowest. Allowing myself to feel safe with this part of myself. (this will take awhile).What is the gift of being Needy?
Being needy has allowed me to develop a stronger more solid bond based on communication with my best friend :-D. Also led me to some lessons about how to better deal with anger.
What is the gift of being non-realistic?Following my gut sensation and honoring it. Saved me alot of hassel when I have used it correctly. Honoring the vision I had/have inside of how things could be and how I can have an impact by honoring that gut sensation really.
What is the gift of being possessive?Helped with my friendship LOL.
What is the gift of being clingy?
Helped with my friendship, again
.Where in my life would it be good for me to be more vulnerable?
With my friendships. In the past, with relationships.
I always got on the defensive whenever I felt like I'd open myself up only for what I long for and my ideals not to be accepted/respected. This is where I'm grateful for my rigidity though on a sidenote as I didn't sacrifice what made me, me. Perhaps I should of addressed how important it was to me and that their support for me and my life path means alot. It actually hurts when I saw them respond to my goals when asked about them with a look of disappointment. That rigidity allowed me to stand up and say "no" where it mattered. Got to learn let people in, be vulerable. Feelings are a good thing. Letting people see how I feel and to let that wall down, will open lines of communication.
I find with one friend it's really hard to accept her as she's really critical/nosey/not respectful of boundaries/sometimes I get annoyed with her apparent needyness in always seeking everyones approval. I get annoyed when she my BFF's mom "mom" for some reason. I think it's cause she seems fake to me. Like she's doing it just to kiss some butt. Like she has a neice now and all of a sudden wants to bond with me as an "Aunt".
Woah... woah woah slow down. Hold on here. I need some space till I can even think about letting this person back in. They were so insensitive when I was going through the beginning stages post father passing. They were just putting their opinions into my life too much. I think this is a lesson in "giving second chances/forgiveness". Maybe that's what this friend is here to teach me. She rubs me the wrong way the most :steam:, so much so I don't even talk to her anymore. She must be a blackhole of my shadow side
. I guess with my friends wedding coming up in a year and a half/plans leading up to it will see what happens. . I just need to make baby steps. I'm not loving/accepting enough to let her in right now. Besides she in the honest to goodness truth brings me down positive wise. Right now I'm not strong enough to handle someone else who is also needing someone to be strong for them (maybe i could use that as a way to exchange vulnerability. Not ready with this specific person yet though). I can't even be strong for myself to handle someone like this "friend".
Well that's all for now. My emotional brain is exhausted already LOL. Nothing like a little shadow indulgement on a beautiful saturday morning
.
