proteanmix
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Just got back yesterday from spending New Years in Philly. I'm seriously considering relocating to Philly, I wouldn't feel like I'm taking a step back in cities. It was just me and my closest friend, not a huge group of people and we had a wonderful time.
I can't believe I blew through $1K in three days. Most of it wasn't even spent on the hotel room. Food (and generous tipping), cabs, and ALCOHOL. I bought an outfit for New Years, too bad I didn't get any pics on my camera. I'll get my friend to send me his pics.
Whenever I leave the forum for an extended amount of time, don't check in or anything when I come back I'm reminded how much better my real life is. People are funnier, wittier, life is real, conversations are better, I just feel more plugged in. I enjoy this forum so much, but nothing compares to when I'm jacked in to the world. My Se was so totally overstimulated, it's like I couldn't even keep up with all that was going on around me and I LOVED it! Colors were bright and vivid, people were loud and pushy and jolly, all of it was all good. As much as I enjoy some people here I've just never felt connected and partially I don't want to connect. I don't want this place to have primacy over my real life, it already has enough sway as it is.
I mean in the space of three days I've had more stimulating thoughts on the direction of my future than reading all these threads about people contemplating what it could be. Drunkenly stumbling down streets and into cabs produced more active contemplation than sitting in my room "trying" to think. I was too busy trying to think instead of just thinking. Of course New Year's tends to spur this kind of thought, but it really felt productive this time.
No New Year's Resolutions, I've never done those. I'm always part of that 98% who's failed by April Fool's Day.
What I talked about with my friend was our immediate futures, like within the next five years. He's got one more year to go before he's done with grad school. I graduated college in 2006 although I was supposed to graduate in 2003. When I turned 28, I wanted to be finished with grad school. That will not be the case this year when I turn 28. I'm not trying to be on a tight schedule with myself; when I think about the goals I've sent for myself in the past I've accomplished most of them, albeit a bit late. I'm not competing against anyone and the only schedule I work against is my own. But the time is now at hand. I'm at a crossroad and the decisions I make now will but me on a trajectory for at least the next ten years of my life. I need to take this decision making time seriously and make the most informed and educated decisions I know how to make.
Basically what it's coming down to know is what I want to go to graduate school for. For most of my life I've heard these two statements about my career: "You should be a teacher." OR "You should be a lawyer." I remember being 12 years old and wanting to be a Supreme Court justice because that just seemed like the most spectacularly awesome thing to do! I'm all about my EJ-ness, which isn't popular on the forum but the world NEEDS us. I'm going to use my extroverted judgment to the best of my capabilities which means whittling it into the most judicious, discerning, and sapient apparatus I can make it into. I've always thought King Solomon was a dominant extroverted judger. I settling on a theme for this year and "Make It Happen" has been going through my head for the last two days.
AND...btw the way I bought two beautiful loc accessories for my hair. These are Adinkra symbols which were developed by the Ashante people of West Africa and can be traced back to the 17th century.
The first is GYE NYAME
which means "Except for God, I fear none." symbol of the supremacy of God
This unique and beautiful symbol is ubiquitous in Ghana. It is by far the most popular for use in decoration, a reflection on the deeply religious character of the Ghanaian people.
And the other one I got is OHENE ANIWA
which means "The eyes of the king are placed all around him." It is the symbol of beauty and vigilance.
Alright, so back to what I was saying I actually need to make a game plan. My thoughts have been roughly
That's as far as I've gotten. I really need to decide if I want to do public policy or law. Certain specializations of law seem intertwined with public policy so I'm sure I can merge them together somehow.
I've got so much going through my mind right now I don't even know where to start. This is definitely going to be a year long process. I don't want to make my decisions to hastily and with scant information as I usually do. This has to be carefully planned for 10,000 different reasons.
I can't believe I blew through $1K in three days. Most of it wasn't even spent on the hotel room. Food (and generous tipping), cabs, and ALCOHOL. I bought an outfit for New Years, too bad I didn't get any pics on my camera. I'll get my friend to send me his pics.
Whenever I leave the forum for an extended amount of time, don't check in or anything when I come back I'm reminded how much better my real life is. People are funnier, wittier, life is real, conversations are better, I just feel more plugged in. I enjoy this forum so much, but nothing compares to when I'm jacked in to the world. My Se was so totally overstimulated, it's like I couldn't even keep up with all that was going on around me and I LOVED it! Colors were bright and vivid, people were loud and pushy and jolly, all of it was all good. As much as I enjoy some people here I've just never felt connected and partially I don't want to connect. I don't want this place to have primacy over my real life, it already has enough sway as it is.
I mean in the space of three days I've had more stimulating thoughts on the direction of my future than reading all these threads about people contemplating what it could be. Drunkenly stumbling down streets and into cabs produced more active contemplation than sitting in my room "trying" to think. I was too busy trying to think instead of just thinking. Of course New Year's tends to spur this kind of thought, but it really felt productive this time.
No New Year's Resolutions, I've never done those. I'm always part of that 98% who's failed by April Fool's Day.
What I talked about with my friend was our immediate futures, like within the next five years. He's got one more year to go before he's done with grad school. I graduated college in 2006 although I was supposed to graduate in 2003. When I turned 28, I wanted to be finished with grad school. That will not be the case this year when I turn 28. I'm not trying to be on a tight schedule with myself; when I think about the goals I've sent for myself in the past I've accomplished most of them, albeit a bit late. I'm not competing against anyone and the only schedule I work against is my own. But the time is now at hand. I'm at a crossroad and the decisions I make now will but me on a trajectory for at least the next ten years of my life. I need to take this decision making time seriously and make the most informed and educated decisions I know how to make.
Basically what it's coming down to know is what I want to go to graduate school for. For most of my life I've heard these two statements about my career: "You should be a teacher." OR "You should be a lawyer." I remember being 12 years old and wanting to be a Supreme Court justice because that just seemed like the most spectacularly awesome thing to do! I'm all about my EJ-ness, which isn't popular on the forum but the world NEEDS us. I'm going to use my extroverted judgment to the best of my capabilities which means whittling it into the most judicious, discerning, and sapient apparatus I can make it into. I've always thought King Solomon was a dominant extroverted judger. I settling on a theme for this year and "Make It Happen" has been going through my head for the last two days.
AND...btw the way I bought two beautiful loc accessories for my hair. These are Adinkra symbols which were developed by the Ashante people of West Africa and can be traced back to the 17th century.
The first is GYE NYAME
which means "Except for God, I fear none." symbol of the supremacy of God
This unique and beautiful symbol is ubiquitous in Ghana. It is by far the most popular for use in decoration, a reflection on the deeply religious character of the Ghanaian people.
And the other one I got is OHENE ANIWA
which means "The eyes of the king are placed all around him." It is the symbol of beauty and vigilance.
Alright, so back to what I was saying I actually need to make a game plan. My thoughts have been roughly
- Look into taking either the GRE or LSAT
- Weep and mourn over the grades on your college transcript, THEN figure out a way around that mountain. Less weeping and mourning and more figuring!!
- Either Public Policy/Education Policy or which specialization in Law?
- RESEARCH, RESEARCH, RESEARCH!
That's as far as I've gotten. I really need to decide if I want to do public policy or law. Certain specializations of law seem intertwined with public policy so I'm sure I can merge them together somehow.
I've got so much going through my mind right now I don't even know where to start. This is definitely going to be a year long process. I don't want to make my decisions to hastily and with scant information as I usually do. This has to be carefully planned for 10,000 different reasons.
