Temporary Sadness

[dloaded]

18 Nov, 2008
5:50pm

My heart is pounding in my ears, my breath is catching in my throat. I feel this incredible longing, and all that comes to my head are images of a candlelit living room, smelling like Christmas trees and warmed by a fireplace. I want, no need to feel warmth, feel surrounded by it. I feel empty, like a hollow vessel, void of inspiration, motivation, desire, energy...anything. I need to rest, just sleep and zone out, no thoughts, no movements, just isolation and complete silence. I need that now and I need it for more than a weekend. I'm so tired.
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What does it mean when you can't stop crying? When you don't even have words associated with your tears? When thinking no longer works? When you're just left with this feeling of despair that snuck up on you and made you realize you're extremely unhappy...and numb.
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What do you do when you can't think your way out of depression? When all your coping skills fall flat? Nothing you do gets you out of your funk and there's no one around that can help? No one around that gets you? Wait it out, hoping you don't slit your wrists in the meantime?

 

[Rainman]

One word and I'm not taking the piss either- Meditate. Like everyone who is upset or depressed all of the time, your in need of spiritual forfillment. Why meditate? It will slowly but surely if practised with consistency, (doesn't even matter how long you do it for but try a minimum of 10 minutes a day. Make sure you do it daily though) organise your thoughts, clear your mind of negative thoughts and balance your mind so your outlook will become clearer. Three things (there are many positives however but for you specifically in correspondence to your blog) will result from consistent and correct meditation.

1. A more positive attitude
2. A clearer mind
3. You may either vanquish or get to the root of what is getting you down.

 

[INTJMom]

Your profile says you are in the military.
You probably hardly ever get a moment alone.
There was a time in my life for about a year when I was hardly ever alone and I discovered that I would actually get suicidal after a few weeks of never being alone for one minute.

If you have a counselor available to you, I would take advantage of the opportunity, but I think gut instinct is correct. You need to be alone, with some peace and quiet, and perhaps a little change of scenery, too. I hope that doesn't sound too trite. I really believe it will help.

You sound homesick. Where are you from?