INFtha14
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- Joined
- Dec 9, 2008
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- MBTI Type
- INFP
- Enneagram
- 6w7
- Instinctual Variant
- sp/sx
http://www.youtube.com/user/2g133?feature=mhum#p/c/31/UuZ3KKr8FYc. My favorite part of this song is at 2:58-3:45. That note @ 3:40-3:45 especially she hits makes me cry so hard. It's like the note makes the tears come on harder XD.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yfwlj0gba_k Live performance with a new verse. 3:40-end
beautiful voices and women. Great performance! Real music .
. Having a good cry session to this song. I'm so grateful for everything.
I'm greatful for the great friendships I've been blessed with. I wouldn't even know or even believe in my worth if it wasn't for the great people I have in my life near and far ;D.
I'm just thinking of how much I have changed and how I'm finally getting back into my groove. I feel love... I am love... I am strong. Stronger then I ever thought I could be. Dad... you never left me . I feel so much love in my heart right now... I could explode *XD* .
This is such a wonderful feeling inside
. Like I was thinking last night "I'm glad life didn't go easy on me". Just makes me appreciate it and it's intricacies all the more.
Man a good cry is such a great release. Definitely needed it
.
Oh! I was sitting and one of my cats comes up to me. I just started petting her. Next thing I know she curls herself in a ball into to me. The other cat followed suit after she left.
I started crying cause in that instant one of the songs my neice was playing was a song that I heavily listened to while my other cat was alive.
That and I had an interesting experience a few nights ago. I was inbetween awake and asleep. I saw this energy moving around a mass of something. I could feel the force of it moving but also observing it at the same time. As soon as it moved around the blackness I opened my eyes with a jolt. I wondered "what was that?".
It was presented to me that maybe the force of it going around something was my spirit coming out of my body (body being the force of it going around the "object" = body) I first thought maybe it was just my spirit already having been out of my body and just speed racing LOL. I kind of can see how the force I felt myself going around was the body. I also talked with someone last night who experienced just what I experienced a few times :O.
Today I was cleaning up and I had a feeling of "everything's okay. Everything has a purpose. Is connected etc." Also thought how I felt like I was observing the object of energy and yet feeling it move out of my body. I thought "I am... what observes and I am... what I'm observing all at the same time." That and I felt that maybe death is not something to be feared. Something was freed from me in that moment in regards to "death". Maybe we don't really "die". It was so freeing to have this revelation. I felt it more then I verbally expressed it. It felt like such a freeing and enlightening experience.
I also had a nice talk with a member here *Antireconciler :-D*. I was alittle resistent to an idea from a documentary "transendental man". I was pondering about how wouldn't that not be me though?
As in if my information and stuff was put into another form would it still be me. AC being the awesome cat he is said how we change as we get older so what I got from it is if we take where and what learned, experiences, memories and put into another form before we'd pass it would be similar to how if we'd be still living on. Hard to articulate but It actually clicked the puzzle together for me.
Though as I sit on it I still wonder about the spirit but also AC mentioned about how can we know for sure if it's not conscious. True. For me I guess it's the uncertainty and really valuing the soul expression and my nerve center XD. It's what makes me feel excitement, the rush of a waterpark ride, hugs, the rush of feeling affection/connection. I guess it could be still felt internally.
Like I was feeling something maybe like eckhart tolle described experiencing after him feeling a bunch of turmoil then getting a revelation himself. That's what I felt perhaps. Definitely felt like I was lighter and could smile sincerely with a lightness of a burden being removed from me.
Interesting.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yfwlj0gba_k Live performance with a new verse. 3:40-end
beautiful voices and women. Great performance! Real music .. Having a good cry session to this song. I'm so grateful for everything. I'm greatful for the great friendships I've been blessed with. I wouldn't even know or even believe in my worth if it wasn't for the great people I have in my life near and far ;D.
I'm just thinking of how much I have changed and how I'm finally getting back into my groove. I feel love... I am love... I am strong. Stronger then I ever thought I could be
. Dad... you never left me . I feel so much love in my heart right now... I could explode *XD* .This is such a wonderful feeling inside
. Like I was thinking last night "I'm glad life didn't go easy on me". Just makes me appreciate it and it's intricacies all the more.Man a good cry is such a great release. Definitely needed it
.Oh! I was sitting and one of my cats comes up to me. I just started petting her. Next thing I know she curls herself in a ball into to me. The other cat followed suit after she left
. I started crying cause in that instant one of the songs my neice was playing was a song that I heavily listened to while my other cat was alive.
That and I had an interesting experience a few nights ago. I was inbetween awake and asleep. I saw this energy moving around a mass of something. I could feel the force of it moving but also observing it at the same time. As soon as it moved around the blackness I opened my eyes with a jolt. I wondered "what was that?".
It was presented to me that maybe the force of it going around something was my spirit coming out of my body (body being the force of it going around the "object" = body) I first thought maybe it was just my spirit already having been out of my body and just speed racing LOL. I kind of can see how the force I felt myself going around was the body. I also talked with someone last night who experienced just what I experienced a few times :O.
Today I was cleaning up and I had a feeling of "everything's okay. Everything has a purpose. Is connected etc." Also thought how I felt like I was observing the object of energy and yet feeling it move out of my body. I thought "I am... what observes and I am... what I'm observing all at the same time." That and I felt that maybe death is not something to be feared. Something was freed from me in that moment in regards to "death". Maybe we don't really "die". It was so freeing to have this revelation. I felt it more then I verbally expressed it. It felt like such a freeing and enlightening experience.
I also had a nice talk with a member here *Antireconciler :-D*. I was alittle resistent to an idea from a documentary "transendental man". I was pondering about how wouldn't that not be me though?
As in if my information and stuff was put into another form would it still be me. AC being the awesome cat he is said how we change as we get older so what I got from it is if we take where and what learned, experiences, memories and put into another form before we'd pass it would be similar to how if we'd be still living on. Hard to articulate but It actually clicked the puzzle together for me.
Though as I sit on it I still wonder about the spirit but also AC mentioned about how can we know for sure if it's not conscious. True. For me I guess it's the uncertainty and really valuing the soul expression and my nerve center XD. It's what makes me feel excitement, the rush of a waterpark ride, hugs, the rush of feeling affection/connection. I guess it could be still felt internally.
Like I was feeling something maybe like eckhart tolle described experiencing after him feeling a bunch of turmoil then getting a revelation himself. That's what I felt perhaps. Definitely felt like I was lighter and could smile sincerely with a lightness of a burden being removed from me.
Interesting
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