Falcarius
The Unwieldy Clawed One
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I think growing up is overrated - maybe I am peculiar - but I want to grow down. I was much happier when I was about 3 years old, had no money, and did not place any value on money. When I was three years old, my biggest problem was if I should play with my toy dinosaurs in the water or in the sand; The sand was much more fun but it was dirtier. Therefore, my mother would always tell me off. Now, I am twenty years old ( well, if only for the next few hours, it is my twenty first birthday tomorrow), I have the equivalent of over five thousand American dollars in my bank, and I feel no happier than when no money. Three year olds tend not to have to worry about getting a job, nor paying bills, nor the expectations of society, nor finding a sexual partner.
I can honestly say I want from my of life is fame. Not annoying starlet photos in OK! or Hello ! magazine fame. Wow, isn't he innovative and influential; let's write biographies about him include him in history books and publish his thoughts in collections where his name proceeded by 'The essential', like they do with David Beckham, and other celebrities I could not give a shit about.
I want to be different, or rather I want to make a difference to this world for better or worse. I want to have web sites dedicated to me. I want to be in the encyclopedia [or should it be called a excite-clopedia] and I want be in the the thesaurus [sounds like a name of a dinosaur] as synonym with accomplished, excellent, distinguished, or admirable. I want to make peoples meaningless life more interesting by writing a world-class book or making an artistic masterpiece.
Unhealthy, unobtainable, verging on the insane but that's what I want. If I'm being honest, more than that I want love, family and happiness. The truth is no one has really loved me for who I am; my ex-girlfriends just pity me, my family only love me because they have to, my female friends just like me because I intellectualise them to death, my male friends just think I am funny, those hot foreign exchange students just sit by me on the bus as I don't sit at the back of the bus while pretending to be a wannabe gangster, and that old women who kept calling me a gentleman the other week only liked me because I gave her my seat on the London Underground. So, basically I'm destined to have a miserable, unfulfilled life of broken dreams, and utter normalcy. I HAVE THIS serious fear of being normal........
I rejected many things my culture tell me:
Firstly, I think money is the Satan's Spawn. I am not saying this is true for everyone, but I know for a fact money can't make me happy. Money tends to bring the worst in people. I don't want to become a member of the upper middle class like society says I should. A famous Margaret Thatcher quote sums up why I hated living in a upper middle class area, "There is no such thing as society: there are individual men and women, and there are families".
Secondly, I think the 'Englishman's house is his castle' attitude is is bullshit. I could not really care less if I never own my own home. I find it ridiculous people who can not afford to buy their own home in western countries moan about it. No, I could not care less if your a teacher, nurse, firefighter, or any other sort of civil servant, can't afford a home in the south east of England. Their are billions of people in the world less well off; half the world live on less than two dollars a day, nearly a billion people entered the 21st century unable to read a book or even their names, over 2 billion children live in poverty, a quarter of all humans live without electricity. Sorry, could you please tell me again why I should give care about the wannabe home owning class in western countries?
Thirdly, this idea about the more money you have the more better person you are is stupid as well. Let me remind you the most prolific serial killer - Harold Shipman - in British history was a doctor, so go and work that out.
Fourthly, I could not care about what job I do. If a job was supposed to be fun it would not be known as work. I can say I honestly say want to do whatever the easiest , least stressful , repetitive, senseless job; hopefully it would help inspire me to be a better person.
I can honestly say I want from my of life is fame. Not annoying starlet photos in OK! or Hello ! magazine fame. Wow, isn't he innovative and influential; let's write biographies about him include him in history books and publish his thoughts in collections where his name proceeded by 'The essential', like they do with David Beckham, and other celebrities I could not give a shit about.
I want to be different, or rather I want to make a difference to this world for better or worse. I want to have web sites dedicated to me. I want to be in the encyclopedia [or should it be called a excite-clopedia] and I want be in the the thesaurus [sounds like a name of a dinosaur] as synonym with accomplished, excellent, distinguished, or admirable. I want to make peoples meaningless life more interesting by writing a world-class book or making an artistic masterpiece.
Unhealthy, unobtainable, verging on the insane but that's what I want. If I'm being honest, more than that I want love, family and happiness. The truth is no one has really loved me for who I am; my ex-girlfriends just pity me, my family only love me because they have to, my female friends just like me because I intellectualise them to death, my male friends just think I am funny, those hot foreign exchange students just sit by me on the bus as I don't sit at the back of the bus while pretending to be a wannabe gangster, and that old women who kept calling me a gentleman the other week only liked me because I gave her my seat on the London Underground. So, basically I'm destined to have a miserable, unfulfilled life of broken dreams, and utter normalcy. I HAVE THIS serious fear of being normal........
I rejected many things my culture tell me:
Firstly, I think money is the Satan's Spawn. I am not saying this is true for everyone, but I know for a fact money can't make me happy. Money tends to bring the worst in people. I don't want to become a member of the upper middle class like society says I should. A famous Margaret Thatcher quote sums up why I hated living in a upper middle class area, "There is no such thing as society: there are individual men and women, and there are families".
Secondly, I think the 'Englishman's house is his castle' attitude is is bullshit. I could not really care less if I never own my own home. I find it ridiculous people who can not afford to buy their own home in western countries moan about it. No, I could not care less if your a teacher, nurse, firefighter, or any other sort of civil servant, can't afford a home in the south east of England. Their are billions of people in the world less well off; half the world live on less than two dollars a day, nearly a billion people entered the 21st century unable to read a book or even their names, over 2 billion children live in poverty, a quarter of all humans live without electricity. Sorry, could you please tell me again why I should give care about the wannabe home owning class in western countries?
Thirdly, this idea about the more money you have the more better person you are is stupid as well. Let me remind you the most prolific serial killer - Harold Shipman - in British history was a doctor, so go and work that out.
Fourthly, I could not care about what job I do. If a job was supposed to be fun it would not be known as work. I can say I honestly say want to do whatever the easiest , least stressful , repetitive, senseless job; hopefully it would help inspire me to be a better person.
