Chimerical
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- Joined
- Apr 30, 2008
- Messages
- 898
- MBTI Type
- INTJ
- Enneagram
- 1w5
Having a stalker is a good experience from a learning standpoint. I get to see things from a different perspective, but I've learned all that is needed and acted like a heartless asshole and told my stalker to leave me alone. I became everything she hates in guys.
I now understand why I'm into girls younger than me and more what I'm seeking. I want two kinds of girls in my life, one who looks out for everyone but herself and a girlfriend. Doesn't matter if they're separate people of the same person.
Both desires originate from my younger brother. Before he was born, when I was 5 years old. I wanted a little sister. Back then I would pray, systematically, for everyone I knew and then what I wanted last. I always prayed that God would give me a little sister. When I was 8 and my parents told us that we were going to get another sibling I thought I was going to have a little sister and got really excited about it. Not only that it was going to be born on my birthday. My birthday passed and no younger sibling, but the next month I got a younger brother.
I never complained that it was a brother and not a sister, I made sure I took care of him the best I could while he was growing up. I taught him whatever I thought he needed and always tried to cheer him up. I was the first to make him laugh. Even with all of this I still wanted a little sister.
I noticed that in my life I always seem to have a girl who's around me, significantly younger than me that I look out for the way I look out for my brother. She usually cares for everyone else but herself and I'm the only one that looks out for her. It's like a little sister. Oddly, most of them are very very attractive, but I'm usually uninteresting in them romantically.
Girls I like tend to be younger and have the same quality as the little sister type, but there's something different. They care about everyone and look out for themselves last and I look out for them, but they also care for me and comfort me whenever I need it. Days I'm so exhausted and worn out from all the trouble life sends me way they seem to know how to help, and I do the same for them.
Recently there's been a great big lack of both.
I now understand why I'm into girls younger than me and more what I'm seeking. I want two kinds of girls in my life, one who looks out for everyone but herself and a girlfriend. Doesn't matter if they're separate people of the same person.
Both desires originate from my younger brother. Before he was born, when I was 5 years old. I wanted a little sister. Back then I would pray, systematically, for everyone I knew and then what I wanted last. I always prayed that God would give me a little sister. When I was 8 and my parents told us that we were going to get another sibling I thought I was going to have a little sister and got really excited about it. Not only that it was going to be born on my birthday. My birthday passed and no younger sibling, but the next month I got a younger brother.
I never complained that it was a brother and not a sister, I made sure I took care of him the best I could while he was growing up. I taught him whatever I thought he needed and always tried to cheer him up. I was the first to make him laugh. Even with all of this I still wanted a little sister.
I noticed that in my life I always seem to have a girl who's around me, significantly younger than me that I look out for the way I look out for my brother. She usually cares for everyone else but herself and I'm the only one that looks out for her. It's like a little sister. Oddly, most of them are very very attractive, but I'm usually uninteresting in them romantically.
Girls I like tend to be younger and have the same quality as the little sister type, but there's something different. They care about everyone and look out for themselves last and I look out for them, but they also care for me and comfort me whenever I need it. Days I'm so exhausted and worn out from all the trouble life sends me way they seem to know how to help, and I do the same for them.
Recently there's been a great big lack of both.
