Chimerical
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- Joined
- Apr 30, 2008
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- MBTI Type
- INTJ
- Enneagram
- 1w5
I've been really in love with Colleen and it's not good for me. By no means are these feellings healthy, they're too dependant. I don't want to feel. But the closest I can get to making it all go away was a playlist I made.
There have been many girls I loved or felt very very strongly about. So I decided to make a playlist with songs on it that remind me of all of them. I feel I should listen to it because I'll think more spread out rather than just about Colleen. I'll think about Ashley, Melissa, and Deidre as well as everyone else that really mattered to me.
I know I wont ever stop caring about her nor will I forget her, but I can stop focusing on her so much this way.
It's not good because I have no desire or motivation in life. I don't study anymore. I don't watch movies, I don't play videogames, I wont exercise, I only eat when I feel really hungry and I only sleep when I'm tired. I don't have any purpose in life, I am nothing. I lack ambition.
There have been many girls I loved or felt very very strongly about. So I decided to make a playlist with songs on it that remind me of all of them. I feel I should listen to it because I'll think more spread out rather than just about Colleen. I'll think about Ashley, Melissa, and Deidre as well as everyone else that really mattered to me.
I know I wont ever stop caring about her nor will I forget her, but I can stop focusing on her so much this way.
It's not good because I have no desire or motivation in life. I don't study anymore. I don't watch movies, I don't play videogames, I wont exercise, I only eat when I feel really hungry and I only sleep when I'm tired. I don't have any purpose in life, I am nothing. I lack ambition.
