mind racer

[Ricin]

I can't sleep. I've been up all night thinking thinking thinking thinking and reading stuff on the internet. Damn you internet. I want to learn about grenades. Then I start reading about different cliches, plots devices, and character types for story ideas I have. I need to start creating something. A story, game, whatever.

I've been pretty nihilistic about relationships recently. I just don't fucking care. Even just friends. I'm fine having none. I've made a few since moving out here, but haven't really made much effort to keep on with them.

I keep thinking of my best friends from when I was a kid. My goal to watch all of southpark makes me think of what I'm missing out of with the lack of friends thing going on. I start thinking . o O (Hmm... maybe I should go make some friends and start hanging out with people.) then I don't care and don't do it.

I'm more focused on playing piano, killzone, and exercising. I've met a few people that seem into me, but I just don't care enough to play the dating game. I never liked that game.

Right now... shit I want to do so many things that I can't decide on one. Sleep. Sleep is good. I'll do that one.