I can understand the feeling of wishing to find someone to share your heart with. However, if I remember correctly Disco, you are still fairly young - 23? You are very likely to find someone wonderful in the next few years and the important part is being ready when you do. What kind of a life could the two of you have together if you can hit the ground already running when you meet her?
You have already started to think about how you can show your more vulnerable side. This is your time to start practicing that in smaller ways with the people around you. Get all the training you can right now, so that when you do find her, you will have enough time for her and less stress about money. Become the kind of man that she doesn't want to do without - how are you at listening to other people? Helping people? Being patient? Have you spent any time around kids or older people? What is your connection with your family like? Have you found quality people to surround yourself with that are going to affect what kind of person you become? What practical skills do you have at fixing things, keeping up with paperwork, etc that make it easier to run a household? Do you have an orderly home? What are your biggest weaknesses and how are you addressing them?
Loneliness is a very common and valid feeling. It is amazing to feel understood by someone. It is what we do with those feeings of loneliness that determine what kind of a person we become - with or without somebody. As others have said, finding someone won't automatically erase those feelings and in some cases can even increase them. If you already know how to deal with those feelings proactively, your chances of success are much higher and the intervening time before you find that person is not wasted.
I'm great at listening to close friends and acquaintances (I Dr. Phil for my friends quite frequently.
I'm less talented at helping others unless the job is something that they physically can't perform. I have gotten much better as of late though.
Patience is probably where I nee the most work.
I like children, however I feel ill equiped with my super strong Te to deal with really young kids.
Very tight with the family.
I surround myself with pretty excellent people.
I'm ok at fixing things, great at paperwork, but a little behind the ball when it comes to keeping my place nice and neat. Its something that I have been working on.
My biggest weaknesses are my patience, my struggle to keep a more orderly home, and others that I don't have the mental clarity to write down at the moment. I've become fast friends with an old flame who has been instrumental in helping me to smooth my rough edges.
I've been going to a lot of friends weddings lately and I don't think wallowing in the delirious happiness of others has helped too much.
I've been trying to be more social and less "if you guys aren't doing what I want to do I don't want to hang out".
I'm actually going to a pirate party this evening that a buddy of mine from school is throwing
Thanks for all the excellent comments guys.