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[Chimerical]

I figured it out. I don't have a set focus when it comes to girls. It's like if you have a deck of cards all laying face down, you want one of these 52 cards if you're picky. Most likely 4 of the 52 are fine with you, but you don't know what it is that you wanted.

You're going to be happiest with a 7 and aren't concerned about the suit. But if you don't know this you'll grab a 5 or a jack and aren't aware this isn't what you wanted. Eventually you'll run into a 7 but you may not be aware that it IS what you want.

It's because I haven't really put too much thought into it past me wanting a girl who's kind and cares about others and not selfish. But this is very general, there isn't much that's specific. I notice how I feel when I'm with someone I really like and someone I don't. I notice there are simularities. I also know there are qualities I would like that I've yet to experience in a girl.

So I've decided. I need to date other girls. I need to go out and experience what there is to experience and get a better idea of what I really truly want. Then I can know more specifically the kind of girl I'm looking for and know when to let go and when to actually care. instead of caring all the time about everyone.