Kind of dumb really

[INTJMom]

Yeah I'm still here. What do you think, I'm made of steel?! This forum is a tough habit to break!
I'm just posting in my blog.

I've decided to take the amount of energy I've been expending on attempting to develop relationships here online and use that energy to develop my real life relationships instead. I think this forum has taught me enough, and given me enough that I now have the courage to go and do that.

It's kind of silly the amount of time I waste here communicating with people who will never be there to see me through the end of my life, whilst at the same time ignoring or neglecting those people who will be there. Kind of dumb really. But whatever. Not to be too hard on myself. There was probably some emotional growth I had to go through first.

I'll probably to implement substitute's plan of action. That seemed to be methodical enough and make enough sense to be useful to me.

 

[proteanmix]

My thoughts exactly.

 

[INTJMom]

 

[proteanmix]

Oh, to clarify I meant that I agree with you. I reached the same conclusion earlier this year.

OR

I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb of Life.

 

[INTJMom]

So far my plan is working pretty well.
I'm trying to live more in the moment, and appreciate the people I have in my life, and make myself available to them.
Pretty cool so far.
Of course, people lead to painful experiences which is why I withdrew in the first place.
Oh well, maybe I'm tougher now.