INFtha14
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I'm thinking it was just very intense emotions I was facing and it scared me. But just in case i'll keep these thoughts here for in the future.
Pretty much in simple terms the past months *since december* the possibility that I could be INtP.
Well I came across this http://www.typologycentral.com/forums/nt-private-forum/24790-intp-being-sentimental.html#post940082 by Jenn and this
INTP Personal Growth.
What ran threw my head when I was reading this was bingo... that's it right there. Simply put many times when I was younger/in my teens/even now I had the hardest time in facing and dealing with emotions. As if I was scared of them and what they could do to me. Whenever a sad song would come on or a sad memory that would stir a sadness in me I'd want to shut it off cause i'd feel so scared at that sensation in my stomach.
I describe my relationship with emotion as if i'm in a room with no doors/windows nothing and all of a sudden the water comes pouring in and in a blink of an eye it's up to my neck so I immediately switch off whatever is causing this disturbance. When I say in a blink of an eye the water fills up in an instant inbetween blinking as in that's my emotions, they come on fast and intense aka overwhelming hence the hot coal theory I have.
It was like everytime i'd be faced with my emotions like that, they were like a holding a very hot coal and I wanted to drop them as soon as I could cause it was too much for me to handle even before this stuff happened in my family. Now I try to hold onto to the hot coal *emotion* alittle longer and not drop it out of fear or being overwhelmed by it's presence.
In life this switching off would usually be a sad song/scene in a movie, even a sad memory of a lost family member or animal.
I don't know how else to discribe it but I may actually be an INtP women
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There's other things that point to it as well. I've always been insanely curious about people, theories, taking those silly little tests just for the heck of it.
Simply put I feel my fathers/cat's/close family relatives deaths have made me confront this part of myself that would rather shut the switch of incoming water or drop the hot coal out of my hand as in emotions that were stired.
Now that i've looked at it this way I think that's a very good possibility.
Pretty much in simple terms the past months *since december* the possibility that I could be INtP.
Well I came across this http://www.typologycentral.com/forums/nt-private-forum/24790-intp-being-sentimental.html#post940082 by Jenn and this
INTP Personal Growth.
What ran threw my head when I was reading this was bingo... that's it right there. Simply put many times when I was younger/in my teens/even now I had the hardest time in facing and dealing with emotions. As if I was scared of them and what they could do to me. Whenever a sad song would come on or a sad memory that would stir a sadness in me I'd want to shut it off cause i'd feel so scared at that sensation in my stomach.
I describe my relationship with emotion as if i'm in a room with no doors/windows nothing and all of a sudden the water comes pouring in and in a blink of an eye it's up to my neck so I immediately switch off whatever is causing this disturbance. When I say in a blink of an eye the water fills up in an instant inbetween blinking as in that's my emotions, they come on fast and intense aka overwhelming hence the hot coal theory I have.
It was like everytime i'd be faced with my emotions like that, they were like a holding a very hot coal and I wanted to drop them as soon as I could cause it was too much for me to handle even before this stuff happened in my family. Now I try to hold onto to the hot coal *emotion* alittle longer and not drop it out of fear or being overwhelmed by it's presence.
In life this switching off would usually be a sad song/scene in a movie, even a sad memory of a lost family member or animal.
I don't know how else to discribe it but I may actually be an INtP women
.There's other things that point to it as well. I've always been insanely curious about people, theories, taking those silly little tests just for the heck of it.
Simply put I feel my fathers/cat's/close family relatives deaths have made me confront this part of myself that would rather shut the switch of incoming water or drop the hot coal out of my hand as in emotions that were stired.
Now that i've looked at it this way I think that's a very good possibility.
