INTJMom
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Yesterday, I taught a song I wrote to the guys on the music team. It was a thrill! It sounded really good and I'm excited to hear it at church on Sunday. I think that one of the greatest honors a music artist can experience is having other musicians play or sing their songs. It is for me, anyway.
At practice, one thing I noticed about myself that was so different than the old me was that I was able to take suggestions and not feel diminished as a person. I was able to integrate the ideas and still feel like it was my own product. That is such a huge improvement for me! Stuff like that used to make me feel so threatened.
And when the drummer refused to slow down the tempo just 2 beats per minute, I handled it great and just let him have his way, though the pastor, who's also a musician, stuck up for me. (After all, it is my song. I wrote it and I should get to play it at the tempo I want... etc.) The drummer is a stubborn ExTJ, so arguing with him is like banging your head against a brick wall. I thought the song did slow down just enough the next time we played it, though the drummer insisted it was all in my imagination. (You know I don't believe him, right?)
It looks like, to a certain degree, I've gotten past needing everyone's approval. I used to be so afraid even of correction or suggestions because I would take it as rejection. Not that I don't care anymore. I do, but I wasn't wrapped up in needing approval. Man! Have I come a long way!
I originally just meant to sing the song by myself on Sunday, but in my head, I hear it more as a big number rather than something just quiet and acoustic. So when the worship leader asked me if I wanted the other musicians to play with me, I thought that would probably be a good idea. Now I can't wait to hear what it's going to sound like!
(Hope it's not too fast.) I'll let you know!
At practice, one thing I noticed about myself that was so different than the old me was that I was able to take suggestions and not feel diminished as a person. I was able to integrate the ideas and still feel like it was my own product. That is such a huge improvement for me! Stuff like that used to make me feel so threatened.
And when the drummer refused to slow down the tempo just 2 beats per minute, I handled it great and just let him have his way, though the pastor, who's also a musician, stuck up for me. (After all, it is my song. I wrote it and I should get to play it at the tempo I want... etc.) The drummer is a stubborn ExTJ, so arguing with him is like banging your head against a brick wall. I thought the song did slow down just enough the next time we played it, though the drummer insisted it was all in my imagination. (You know I don't believe him, right?)
It looks like, to a certain degree, I've gotten past needing everyone's approval. I used to be so afraid even of correction or suggestions because I would take it as rejection. Not that I don't care anymore. I do, but I wasn't wrapped up in needing approval. Man! Have I come a long way!
I originally just meant to sing the song by myself on Sunday, but in my head, I hear it more as a big number rather than something just quiet and acoustic. So when the worship leader asked me if I wanted the other musicians to play with me, I thought that would probably be a good idea. Now I can't wait to hear what it's going to sound like!
(Hope it's not too fast.) I'll let you know!
