Chimerical
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- Joined
- Apr 30, 2008
- Messages
- 898
- MBTI Type
- INTJ
- Enneagram
- 1w5
I've been studying the psychology of attraction for a while now. Reading books written by Neil Strause, Mystery, David DeAngelo and so on. I really don't like this stuff. It sucks out the soul of a relationship and makes it into something really superficial.
When I don't care, I can go along with what they've written and not worry. I don't find it unethical because I'm not lying to anyone and I'm showing them a good time and giving them what they want. But when I start to care things change and I don't function the same way.
I don't want people I care about to be thrown about in this alpha beta equation that reminds me of animal planet. So I try to make everything equal, because that's what I've always wanted: equality. I want to meet someone who's no better nor less than me.
I view everyone as if they're equals, but a lot of people don't see things the same way [as in I have yet to meet anyone who thinks the same way]. I don't think I ever will meet someone like this, so I'm giving up.
Last night I was talking to a group of girls sitting at a table I had put in so much effort to "open" and keep them interested in me. But I just didn't care. I try to leave the table and they followed me the way I used to follow girls when I didn't know any of this. I left and went home, I'm tired of this.
When I don't care, I can go along with what they've written and not worry. I don't find it unethical because I'm not lying to anyone and I'm showing them a good time and giving them what they want. But when I start to care things change and I don't function the same way.
I don't want people I care about to be thrown about in this alpha beta equation that reminds me of animal planet. So I try to make everything equal, because that's what I've always wanted: equality. I want to meet someone who's no better nor less than me.
I view everyone as if they're equals, but a lot of people don't see things the same way [as in I have yet to meet anyone who thinks the same way]. I don't think I ever will meet someone like this, so I'm giving up.
Last night I was talking to a group of girls sitting at a table I had put in so much effort to "open" and keep them interested in me. But I just didn't care. I try to leave the table and they followed me the way I used to follow girls when I didn't know any of this. I left and went home, I'm tired of this.
