netzealot
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- Joined
- Jan 12, 2013
- Messages
- 228
- MBTI Type
- ISTP
It seems like, in a world where subtle context and social implication runs rampant, me (an ISTP) is such a simple guy that I am confusing to a lot of people... even people who have known me a very long time.
Perhaps it is this simplicity from which we view things that allows us to grasp many complex inter-workings... and perhaps it is that we are so simple that people would never estimate that our real intentions have not the slightest difference from our admitted, even very apparent ones.
On one hand, the simple life is the best life. I rather enjoy this ability (or maybe it's others' inability?) to keep things so simple. Sometimes, though, it's hard not to feel lonely living in a world where you can understand everything and everyone yet nobody understands you... despite being so easy to understand. What's hardest is not to settle for relationships that lack any substance to them, just cause they don't demand any complexity by nature... and these aren't always good relationships for me.
Don't get me wrong... I'm not a lonely guy. People constantly vie for my attention and company. It's just a feeling... despite being surrounded by willing companions, it still feels lonely when you're separated by a seemingly endless expanse of assumption and the misunderstanding that inevitably ensues from it. You're surrounded yet never really seen for who you really are.
...and I can't shake the feeling that I'm trapped by all this. Free because of simplicity, yet trapped by the inability of everyone you meet to just open their eyes and take you for face value. To escape the sense of entrapment, I end up seeking solitude, sometimes to such an extent that others say it is unhealthy and I can't entirely disagree with them. Even they don't understand that to me, it is the lesser evil.
Is this the plight of every ISTP?
Perhaps it is this simplicity from which we view things that allows us to grasp many complex inter-workings... and perhaps it is that we are so simple that people would never estimate that our real intentions have not the slightest difference from our admitted, even very apparent ones.
On one hand, the simple life is the best life. I rather enjoy this ability (or maybe it's others' inability?) to keep things so simple. Sometimes, though, it's hard not to feel lonely living in a world where you can understand everything and everyone yet nobody understands you... despite being so easy to understand. What's hardest is not to settle for relationships that lack any substance to them, just cause they don't demand any complexity by nature... and these aren't always good relationships for me.
Don't get me wrong... I'm not a lonely guy. People constantly vie for my attention and company. It's just a feeling... despite being surrounded by willing companions, it still feels lonely when you're separated by a seemingly endless expanse of assumption and the misunderstanding that inevitably ensues from it. You're surrounded yet never really seen for who you really are.
...and I can't shake the feeling that I'm trapped by all this. Free because of simplicity, yet trapped by the inability of everyone you meet to just open their eyes and take you for face value. To escape the sense of entrapment, I end up seeking solitude, sometimes to such an extent that others say it is unhealthy and I can't entirely disagree with them. Even they don't understand that to me, it is the lesser evil.
Is this the plight of every ISTP?