Chimerical
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- Joined
- Apr 30, 2008
- Messages
- 898
- MBTI Type
- INTJ
- Enneagram
- 1w5
Life is always easier to me when people aren't involved. People are mean. It's easier to get a task down when I'm be myself.
All of my hobbies don't involve people for this reason. When I go skateboarding I don't need other people. When I go running, no one's cooporation is required. All of these things are guaranteed to work.
Generally I wish I didn't want to be around people at all. I wish I didn't need them. I wish I had no sexual desire. I want to be self sufficient and not rely on anyone else for anything.
This is why I'm depressed. I want to have a friend and have someone to talk to. But I really don't want to want that. I wish I didn't desire it at all. I wish I could be fine without.
A lot of times I'll find something that makes me feel great. A song, or a poem. Something. I love the way it feels so much that I wish someone else could feel this way. So I go and try to share with someone else, only to find out they don't care. It's very discouraging.
All of my hobbies don't involve people for this reason. When I go skateboarding I don't need other people. When I go running, no one's cooporation is required. All of these things are guaranteed to work.
Generally I wish I didn't want to be around people at all. I wish I didn't need them. I wish I had no sexual desire. I want to be self sufficient and not rely on anyone else for anything.
This is why I'm depressed. I want to have a friend and have someone to talk to. But I really don't want to want that. I wish I didn't desire it at all. I wish I could be fine without.
A lot of times I'll find something that makes me feel great. A song, or a poem. Something. I love the way it feels so much that I wish someone else could feel this way. So I go and try to share with someone else, only to find out they don't care. It's very discouraging.
