I'm tired of life

[Rainman]

Yes I'm bored of life and I'm only 25. Not sure what I need to make it more interesting really. I work in a 'fun' job if that exists. (well my brother tells me its a great job and wonders why i'm bored of it). Not sure if its the right job for me as it involves too much communication with others, whether its meetings, brainstorming sessions or discussing my ideas I get anxious in these situations and find it difficult to 'attack' in a social setting as far as work is concerned and my colleagues. I think me smoking weed doesn't help as it does stunt my ability to talk, but its the only release I have when I've finished a day at work. I guess I'm bored of the monotony of my lifestyle: work, go home have a smoke, go to bed, get up work, go home have a smoke, go to bed. The only thing that breaks up my weekend is occasionally going to my fathers or playing football after work sometimes. I go out during the weekend but even that is beginning to become a chore, especially as I always seem to be short on cash these days. I try and save but the London 'amusements' keep taking any money I might have saved.
I really want to go on holiday for a long period but I have a loan to payoff and that keeps me in this dreary existence. I think sometimes maybe I should just make this girl I'm seeing my regular girlfriend but i know she aint right for me cos I'm just not that into having a relationship at the moment that would mean even more unwanted social affairs and the daily unwanted pointless phonecalls that come with having a girlfriend to look after. *Sigh* I dunno I just feel bored, unmotivated and trapped most of all. I am quite a positive person normally and can usually sort out my own issues, and still can but I just wanted to know what others feel like aswell. I guess I'm just starting to realise that life is a pisser, but there's got to be more to life than this monotony. I want a bomb to go off in my office and me (and maybe a few others) To survive the blast. Then i could write a book about it and travel the world telling my amazing story. Pipedreams... that's all it is at the moment just fucking pipedreams. Then I wake up and its Tuesday and I'm off to work again. People talk so much crap aswell that's why I'm never involved in conversation at my work they just talk bollocks ALL the time. Can't people just be more like me?

 

[GargoylesLegacy]

Gee! I just felt like that a few Weeks ago. "Is that ALL Life has to offer?". Yeah, those were exactly my Thoughts too. And I was bored to Hell with Everything and just felt Bleh.
I am not QUITE sure how I did exit it but I know I tried to change some Things and to find myself new Challenges. I made a new "To do List" with Stuff I wanted to do since longer already but never could until now. Yeah and while doing that I found Something that kept me busy and got me back up again. Maybe it works for you too?
I would sure be happy if it did, since I know how effing much it sucks to be in such a "Just leave me alone, I am so bored" State.