i will make you hurt.

[scantilyclad]

Life seems to be moving along much quicker. Maybe it's because i'm starting to get old, but it seems like i wake up, and before i know it i am asleep. I feel like i'm wasting what little time i have. I wish i had time to read more. The few hours i get while Brady is napping doesn't satisfy me. I usually have other things to do, things that aren't near as pleasant. Things that i would rather hire a maid to do.
I still have laundry to put away from a week ago. I'm glad we have that extra sofa, so that i can pile laundry on it.

I'm getting caught up in odd fantasy worlds, where everything bad seems to happen. My thoughts have been very negative lately, and perhaps even morbid. I can't even drive down the highway without thinking about getting in a wreck, and having something decapitate me. I suppose i'm having a bit of anxiety. I'm afraid bad things will happen to me,and Brady will be left alone to cry until someone finds me. It's all wrong, and i'd rather think about unicorns and waterfalls.


I've been doubting myself a lot and i wish i could let other people see who i really am. I need sleep.

 

[heart]

Lack of sleep is probably one of the biggest factors there. Your mind too tired for fantasy play time that it so badly needs.