Thalassa
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Ok so I do this yin yoga workshop near the beach this weekend and the first thing I notice is my resistance to it, almost a curmudgeonly grouchiness that its so different from my beloved vinyasa flow. I actually started wondering about 90 minutes into the six hours why the hell Id spent so much money on it.
Later that evening, after the first day, I was weepy and bitchy on some hella deep level, and its not even time for my period. I was like Jesus what's wrong with me, and one of the guys I've been seeing triggered me, but I got way too upset with him, as if I were upset about other things, like a tidal wave was being unleashed.
On the second day, wondering if I was losing my mind, I actually really enjoyed the last two hours of the workshop.
I also believe I experienced about twenty minutes of enlightenment afterwards. I felt blissed out, like the way the Dalai Llama probably feels for the better part of every day. I swear that finally after all my yoga and meditation I got a brief glimpse into a real zen state. I couldn't stop smiling. Everyone was beautiful, even other peoples children (Im usually more of a cat person than a kid person, as most of you know.)
however, the state departed and my emotional tidal wave came back with a super vengeance. I then experienced some brief states that let me know I was actually re-experiencing traumatic memories, like literally feeling briefly the intense despair of leaving my ESFJ ex, but in miniature, like for twenty minutes instead of months, and when I acknowledged it for what it really was, it passed.
That yin yoga work shop had deep hip opening postures which releases repressed emotions, especially in women. Its more like what happens to some people when they see a chiropractor or do acupuncture, it literally releases and heals the core issues of disease or neurosis in your life. You cant cheat your way to inner peace by repressing or pretending its not there. You have to work through your shit like intensive psychotherapy, but via your body as well as the mind, which I and some other people think is superior, as it reaches down into the true primal energy instead of just analyzing what you're consciously aware of.
Dude, I woke up this morning feeling great, like super qi. Better than I had collectively in days, like Id worked through garbage and let go of it.
Maybe my initial resistance was remaining reluctance to face and let go of certain things. It wasnt easy, but it was amazing, I learned at a really deep level where my reactivity comes from and now how to process and acknowledge my feelings like a healthier person.
I just feel sorry to anyone who absorbed the brunt of my shenanigans over the weekend. Lol.
Later that evening, after the first day, I was weepy and bitchy on some hella deep level, and its not even time for my period. I was like Jesus what's wrong with me, and one of the guys I've been seeing triggered me, but I got way too upset with him, as if I were upset about other things, like a tidal wave was being unleashed.
On the second day, wondering if I was losing my mind, I actually really enjoyed the last two hours of the workshop.
I also believe I experienced about twenty minutes of enlightenment afterwards. I felt blissed out, like the way the Dalai Llama probably feels for the better part of every day. I swear that finally after all my yoga and meditation I got a brief glimpse into a real zen state. I couldn't stop smiling. Everyone was beautiful, even other peoples children (Im usually more of a cat person than a kid person, as most of you know.)
however, the state departed and my emotional tidal wave came back with a super vengeance. I then experienced some brief states that let me know I was actually re-experiencing traumatic memories, like literally feeling briefly the intense despair of leaving my ESFJ ex, but in miniature, like for twenty minutes instead of months, and when I acknowledged it for what it really was, it passed.
That yin yoga work shop had deep hip opening postures which releases repressed emotions, especially in women. Its more like what happens to some people when they see a chiropractor or do acupuncture, it literally releases and heals the core issues of disease or neurosis in your life. You cant cheat your way to inner peace by repressing or pretending its not there. You have to work through your shit like intensive psychotherapy, but via your body as well as the mind, which I and some other people think is superior, as it reaches down into the true primal energy instead of just analyzing what you're consciously aware of.
Dude, I woke up this morning feeling great, like super qi. Better than I had collectively in days, like Id worked through garbage and let go of it.
Maybe my initial resistance was remaining reluctance to face and let go of certain things. It wasnt easy, but it was amazing, I learned at a really deep level where my reactivity comes from and now how to process and acknowledge my feelings like a healthier person.
I just feel sorry to anyone who absorbed the brunt of my shenanigans over the weekend. Lol.
