9. What is the message your superego tells you?
"Work more, be productive, you lazy ass bastard!
Consider a time when you felt poorly about yourself--this means your ego (i.e. YOU) is receiving negative feedback from your superego. Write a conversation between the two of them--what is your superego telling you about how to be? (Note: this obviously is very personal and may be better done privately. Report your findings).
Yeah, its quiet personal...
For the following, rank the issues in the order they apply and give a brief description of why and how you relate.
10. Determine your ego ideal--the way you strive to be and want others to perceive you. (Note, you may be consciously aware of failing at this, and you will be hard on yourself if you do. If someone else tells you you're NOT this way, it may make you feel hurt, violated, or angry.)
I want to be seen as succesful, powerful, attractive, genuine, real
Which of the following ideals resonate with you the most, and why? Rank them.
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- to be "okay", having it together 7
- to be devoted and loyal to a person or cause 5
- to be sensitive, original, unique, and creative 7
- to be knowlegeable 8
- to be powerful, strong, unassailable. 7
- to be accomplished and successful 9
- to strive to become/behave like a good person 6
- to be a loveable person 8
- to be loving and benevolent 5
11. Determine your "felt sense" of life. To do this it may help to look at how you perceive events. Another way to do this is to look back at your childhood and think of all the things your parents did to you. How did you/do you feel about these events?
Here are some common "felt senses" of life:
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- I must do everything to maintain my world Yes
- I have a sense of being unimportant, insignificant, and underving of attention I wouldn't say that, but I would say sometimes others make me feel this way, probably not on purpose most of the time. Depends on my mood tbh.
- I feel imperfect, not (good) enough Perfection isn't that important to me
- I have been abandoned and I am inherently flawed Resonates with me
- I'm outside the natural unfoldment of things Not sure
- People have wronged and messed with me So so true to me
- I feel isolated, cut off, and ultimately separate So true
- I have felt weak and/or vulnerable to attack Sometimes, but its not common
- I've had a sense of being rejectible Yes
12. Core fears. You may have been aware of these fears even as a very small child, before anyone did anything to influence it. You'd be mortified to be in this position or have others perceive you this way.
Discuss which fears have played the greatest role in your life:
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- Creating conflict by making myself or my needs too obvious This one, yes.
- Rejection, being needy, and not being loved Kinda
- Weak and not being on top of things Kinda
- Failure [BYes, this one][/B]
- Being abandoned, sadness, feeling lost This, yes
- Entanglements and losing what I have Very much this
- Something is basically wrong with me--I'm not good enough Not sure
- Boredom, grunt work, and being exposed as a charlatan Never thought about it, but it sounds scary
- A lot--everything and everyone to one degree or another. It's very generalized. Not sure.