Chimerical
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- Apr 30, 2008
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I'm remembering how the whole thing with Colleen actually started. I was so different when I met her than I am now. I was happy and dependent on only me to be happy. Then I let go and let her have control of that.
Then there was an association with how happy I felt and her since I was no longer happy when she was gone. I felt like something very important was gone. Something I needed and wanted.
Now I know it was never her. It was a state of being I had created for myself. Which is actually what attracted her to me in the first place.
I need to dig deeper to understand this better. Organize so I can write something more useful.
Then there was an association with how happy I felt and her since I was no longer happy when she was gone. I felt like something very important was gone. Something I needed and wanted.
Now I know it was never her. It was a state of being I had created for myself. Which is actually what attracted her to me in the first place.
I need to dig deeper to understand this better. Organize so I can write something more useful.