INFtha14
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- Joined
- Dec 9, 2008
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- sp/sx
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JFmNeZvyqIg
First off this song is just so beautiful
. I remember hearing this song in my teen years/20-21 yrs old and being in such an agreement with the line "if this is love why does it scare me so?". Well I guess it's funny how as you get older and more confident the reasons for being scared change. Someday when I officially find that person for me it wouldn't scare cause I'm afraid of being vulnerable. I'd be afraid to lose them. To never see them. But I can definitely say I'm not in this life to live it mediocre. I want to live out the depth of it like they say.
Then of course i hear how this singer died of lung cancer. Don't why that's got me balling my eyes out but if I ever had to lose someone i'd love to cancer I'd surely break. So maybe I'm thinking how my dad must of felt in regards to how he loved my mom.
I'm in this life for the long haul. Come at me. I'm not here to hide in the shadows. I can handle whatever get thrown at me. I used to be so afraid of letting anyone in even my best friends. But as I let my friends/family in I'm starting to see how I want to love someone. I want to sacrifice... I want to commit. Were all going to die someday (impermanence so what do we really "have" anyway but the joy of this moment), I can't let that stop me from living life to it's fullest. I want (already have LOL) to feel intense joy *err more on the side of intense joy okay?
* as well as pain, to feel both extremes is what makes life so beautiful . I'm grateful for the hard times as well the good.
I can definitely say I'm glad I'm a tenacious gal :workout: like my mom. I'm glad for everything and everyone I've encountered continue too. I'm not defeated so easily or at all.
I'm so grateful that I can feel such love for those near and dear to me that it brings me to tears when I think of how much I love them all
. It feels wonderful. I wouldn't trade this for anything. Connections = spice of life 
.
Heh... I wrote somewhere in a private thought bubble that someone's bound to see my awesomeness eventually XD. it was said more in jest/a mature confidence, when a few years ago I would of said it with a melancholy undertone. I've definitely grown in confidence/maturity. I'm getting there in my own time and that's awesome!
Right where I need to be...
Polka dots
.
First off this song is just so beautiful
. I remember hearing this song in my teen years/20-21 yrs old and being in such an agreement with the line "if this is love why does it scare me so?". Well I guess it's funny how as you get older and more confident the reasons for being scared change. Someday when I officially find that person for me it wouldn't scare cause I'm afraid of being vulnerable. I'd be afraid to lose them. To never see them. But I can definitely say I'm not in this life to live it mediocre. I want to live out the depth of it like they say. Then of course i hear how this singer died of lung cancer. Don't why that's got me balling my eyes out but if I ever had to lose someone i'd love to cancer I'd surely break. So maybe I'm thinking how my dad must of felt in regards to how he loved my mom.
I'm in this life for the long haul. Come at me. I'm not here to hide in the shadows. I can handle whatever get thrown at me. I used to be so afraid of letting anyone in even my best friends. But as I let my friends/family in I'm starting to see how I want to love someone. I want to sacrifice... I want to commit. Were all going to die someday (impermanence so what do we really "have" anyway but the joy of this moment), I can't let that stop me from living life to it's fullest. I want (already have LOL) to feel intense joy *err more on the side of intense joy okay?
* as well as pain, to feel both extremes is what makes life so beautiful . I'm grateful for the hard times as well the good.I can definitely say I'm glad I'm a tenacious gal :workout: like my mom. I'm glad for everything and everyone I've encountered continue too. I'm not defeated so easily or at all
. I'm so grateful that I can feel such love for those near and dear to me that it brings me to tears when I think of how much I love them all
. It feels wonderful. I wouldn't trade this for anything. Connections = spice of life .Heh... I wrote somewhere in a private thought bubble that someone's bound to see my awesomeness eventually XD. it was said more in jest/a mature confidence
, when a few years ago I would of said it with a melancholy undertone. I've definitely grown in confidence/maturity. I'm getting there in my own time and that's awesome! Right where I need to be...
Polka dots
.
