scantilyclad
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Things at home have been very chaotic. Mike and i have been arguing a lot, and since my sister is here, we've been having to pretend like nothing is wrong.
I went to my first group counseling session last night, although i felt horrible, because the night before i was in the hospital all night with gallbladder issues. I was in a lot of pain. I know i need to get that thing removed soon. They prescribed me this anti-nausea medicine that knocks me out. Pair that with the hydrocodone for pain, and it was not a nice combination. I slept for almost 22 hours. I was very disoriented at group, but i guess i got a little out of it. Most of the people there were anorexic or bulimic, very few binge eaters, but we all really had a lot of the same issues. However, i've noticed that people with anorexia and bulimia are more interested in having some sort of control over their life, while people like me, just have trouble dealing with stress and overwhelming feelings.
I've also completed my First step in my 12 step program, which is to admit to the people that i love that i have a problem. I don't really think my family took me very seriously, which sort of hurt. When i told my stepmom, she made a sarcastic joke saying "oh yeah me too, yeah i'm totally a compulsive over eater, not fat, just a compulsive over eater" It's sad that i can't get support from some of these people. The only person who really seems to understand is mike, because he has seen my eating habits. When i lived at home i would always just sneak in the kitchen and get whatever food i could back to my room, because i knew someone would comment on how much i was eating if they saw me. I usually never ate dinner with my family either, because someone would always say something about me going back for seconds, or thirds, or make fun of me for licking my plate or bowl clean. It's embarrassing and i want people to be able to understand that i don't want to be this way.
anyway, i gotta work tonight. I haven't worked in about a week, so i need the money. I want to go see Batman sometime this week and I'm taking my sister out for her 15th birthday one day this week too, so i really need to start feeling better.
I went to my first group counseling session last night, although i felt horrible, because the night before i was in the hospital all night with gallbladder issues. I was in a lot of pain. I know i need to get that thing removed soon. They prescribed me this anti-nausea medicine that knocks me out. Pair that with the hydrocodone for pain, and it was not a nice combination. I slept for almost 22 hours. I was very disoriented at group, but i guess i got a little out of it. Most of the people there were anorexic or bulimic, very few binge eaters, but we all really had a lot of the same issues. However, i've noticed that people with anorexia and bulimia are more interested in having some sort of control over their life, while people like me, just have trouble dealing with stress and overwhelming feelings.
I've also completed my First step in my 12 step program, which is to admit to the people that i love that i have a problem. I don't really think my family took me very seriously, which sort of hurt. When i told my stepmom, she made a sarcastic joke saying "oh yeah me too, yeah i'm totally a compulsive over eater, not fat, just a compulsive over eater" It's sad that i can't get support from some of these people. The only person who really seems to understand is mike, because he has seen my eating habits. When i lived at home i would always just sneak in the kitchen and get whatever food i could back to my room, because i knew someone would comment on how much i was eating if they saw me. I usually never ate dinner with my family either, because someone would always say something about me going back for seconds, or thirds, or make fun of me for licking my plate or bowl clean. It's embarrassing and i want people to be able to understand that i don't want to be this way.
anyway, i gotta work tonight. I haven't worked in about a week, so i need the money. I want to go see Batman sometime this week and I'm taking my sister out for her 15th birthday one day this week too, so i really need to start feeling better.
