(English isn't my first language. so please bare with me.)
I took mbti test online many times through 10 years since I was in high school.
I'd been always INFP on the test result and I just started to learn how MBTI works only recently (cognitive functions etc..) and it's more and more confusing.
Honestly, I didn't really care what my type was when I didn't delve into MBTI at all.
But since I started learning about it, I developed this attachment to the-supposedly-my-type-INFP.
And now it almost feels like I am trying to find every evidence that can confirm I am INFP, not any other type.
I only took mbti test based on self-report way online before and I recently met this guy who's quite knowledgeable about enneagram and mbti.
And he told me that I am not INFP but ENFP or ENTP. I also thought I was 4w5 in enneagram(I am quite rebellious and independent) but he thought I was 7w8.
Since his remark, I have been really confused about myself and my motives in life.
I usually don't seek attention from others and I zone out in social setting if I don't feel comfortable(usually I don't feel comfortable at all whenever I have to socialize..) or I just don't really like the people around me in the situation.
I am very picky when it comes to making friends. I don't initiate conversation unless someone appears really interesting to me. I only have few friends and my closest friends are all SJ so I feel lonely. Its really difficult for me to be social. But I can be goofy and bubbly around comfortable people.
I never speak about it to others but I have this condescending attitude towards people because I have really high expectations and values of my own..
I always have numerous ideas and possibilities in my mind about everything in my life (especially about my future)
and it feels overwhelming. It almost feels numbing.
I value freedom so much so I'm even afraid of freedom.
I have committment issue. I am afraid of committing to something because I am a perfectionist and I'm afraid of rejection because I basically think I am a weirdo and people don't get me. I am super protective of my own feelings as well. I would not start anything if I'm not going to be perfect
or at least really really good.
I know that INFP has very vivid imagination but I really don't know if I have it as well..
I have many different story lines about my private life (I fantazise about romantic relationship and how I would build and decorate my own house in countryside etc..) but can I imagine fairy tale-like fantasy world in my head?
I don't think so.. I feel like I am every intuitive but not insightful that much.. or at least I don't have the ability to project my feelings well in a verbal way.
I also like to keep things to myself because I often feel I am exploited emotionally and regret talking about myself later if I open up to somebody.
(I think this relates to how I feel like I'm a victim.)
But I also like to explore as well. I think I am quite adventurous. (It is hard for me to be adventurous but I always have this urge to be out there and
meet new awesome people. but if I actually go out and meet people I usually get disappointed.)
I want to try new things and learn new things as well. (But it takes long time for me to start as well and often times I never start.)
It's hard for me to stay in a job for long time as well.
And I can be really bossy and demanding when I'm around people I love. (family and closest friends)
I can be really passive aggressive and always try to control subtle energy or atmosphere in a situation but I would try to do that passively or subtly?(manipulative, you could say)
Honestly, the most confusing thing for me is Fi right now.
I can't even know what is 'feeling' anymore.
I feel like I am 'thinking' 'feeling, emotions' sometimes or in other words, I feel like I am feeling 'my thinking process'.
I think my dominant and auxiliary fuctuons are Fi and Ne, but cannot be sure which one of them is my dominant one. I think it's more difficult to type myself because I am very unhealthy one whichever type I might be.
And I also don't have strong value 'system'. I have my own sense of moral but they are not structured at all I guess.
I am quite sure that I'm NP type but not sure which type I really am.
Ah, and all those fictional characters I deeply related has been all INFPs.. so that's one of the reason why I thought I am INFP.
Can anyone tell anything based on what I've written here..?
Thanks for taking time and reading my rambling..!
I took mbti test online many times through 10 years since I was in high school.
I'd been always INFP on the test result and I just started to learn how MBTI works only recently (cognitive functions etc..) and it's more and more confusing.
Honestly, I didn't really care what my type was when I didn't delve into MBTI at all.
But since I started learning about it, I developed this attachment to the-supposedly-my-type-INFP.
And now it almost feels like I am trying to find every evidence that can confirm I am INFP, not any other type.
I only took mbti test based on self-report way online before and I recently met this guy who's quite knowledgeable about enneagram and mbti.
And he told me that I am not INFP but ENFP or ENTP. I also thought I was 4w5 in enneagram(I am quite rebellious and independent) but he thought I was 7w8.
Since his remark, I have been really confused about myself and my motives in life.
I usually don't seek attention from others and I zone out in social setting if I don't feel comfortable(usually I don't feel comfortable at all whenever I have to socialize..) or I just don't really like the people around me in the situation.
I am very picky when it comes to making friends. I don't initiate conversation unless someone appears really interesting to me. I only have few friends and my closest friends are all SJ so I feel lonely. Its really difficult for me to be social. But I can be goofy and bubbly around comfortable people.
I never speak about it to others but I have this condescending attitude towards people because I have really high expectations and values of my own..
I always have numerous ideas and possibilities in my mind about everything in my life (especially about my future)
and it feels overwhelming. It almost feels numbing.
I value freedom so much so I'm even afraid of freedom.
I have committment issue. I am afraid of committing to something because I am a perfectionist and I'm afraid of rejection because I basically think I am a weirdo and people don't get me. I am super protective of my own feelings as well. I would not start anything if I'm not going to be perfect
or at least really really good.
I know that INFP has very vivid imagination but I really don't know if I have it as well..
I have many different story lines about my private life (I fantazise about romantic relationship and how I would build and decorate my own house in countryside etc..) but can I imagine fairy tale-like fantasy world in my head?
I don't think so.. I feel like I am every intuitive but not insightful that much.. or at least I don't have the ability to project my feelings well in a verbal way.
I also like to keep things to myself because I often feel I am exploited emotionally and regret talking about myself later if I open up to somebody.
(I think this relates to how I feel like I'm a victim.)
But I also like to explore as well. I think I am quite adventurous. (It is hard for me to be adventurous but I always have this urge to be out there and
meet new awesome people. but if I actually go out and meet people I usually get disappointed.)
I want to try new things and learn new things as well. (But it takes long time for me to start as well and often times I never start.)
It's hard for me to stay in a job for long time as well.
And I can be really bossy and demanding when I'm around people I love. (family and closest friends)
I can be really passive aggressive and always try to control subtle energy or atmosphere in a situation but I would try to do that passively or subtly?(manipulative, you could say)
Honestly, the most confusing thing for me is Fi right now.
I can't even know what is 'feeling' anymore.
I feel like I am 'thinking' 'feeling, emotions' sometimes or in other words, I feel like I am feeling 'my thinking process'.
I think my dominant and auxiliary fuctuons are Fi and Ne, but cannot be sure which one of them is my dominant one. I think it's more difficult to type myself because I am very unhealthy one whichever type I might be.
And I also don't have strong value 'system'. I have my own sense of moral but they are not structured at all I guess.
I am quite sure that I'm NP type but not sure which type I really am.
Ah, and all those fictional characters I deeply related has been all INFPs.. so that's one of the reason why I thought I am INFP.
Can anyone tell anything based on what I've written here..?
Thanks for taking time and reading my rambling..!