littlemissgiggles
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- Apr 4, 2008
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I'm always so...almost.
I almost understand the topic.
I almost got cast in the play.
I almost get along with my family.
I almost got my broadcasting project exactly right.
Almost. Almost. Almost.
I guess that's what my postmodernism paper is annoying me most about. This class is...nuts. My ISTJ housemate and I are taking it and she doesn't understand anything...or she understands it completely. But for me it's...almost. The topics are slippery--they're written that way on purpose I guess--but it's like trying to hold a bar of soap in the shower. You have it for a little, then you lose it.
I feel like I'm drawing an infinite spiral around the *point* of my paper, getting closer and closer but never quite coming to my conclusion.
Fairly sure the prof is IN_J...She seems Ni-dominant, but maybe it's because this topic seems Ni-Dominant. It hits me in flashes...the sum of all the info I've read + something that just lands there all of a sudden, then goes away. The most I can do is see the articles in terms of a giant web. They are all connected to each other but not each to every one. Like A will connect to B, which will connect to C, which will connect to D and B, and D will connect to A, which will also connect to E, Etc. The more I study the more connections appear.
And it's so complex and massage-y for my brain! It's like I get it, somewhere, deep in there, I've got it, but the thoughts are like amorphous blobs, inarticulable, and in order to articulate them I am reduced to outlines and charts and graphs, which only skim the surface and can never capture the *essence* of my amorphous blobby-thoughts.
I'm getting better with the articulation, and it's thankfully one of those useful papers that actually *increases* my understanding of the material, not asking me to spew back outdated literary criticism and somesuch, so it's worth it, even though it's tough.
My paper sounds alternately trite and scholarly and like a conversation with a 5 year old. It's pretty clear I've done the research but I'm working on articulating the idea. I have the idea. It's just not in verbal form! Before recently I didn't think thought was possible without the ability to verbalize but now I strongly disagree.
Now I understand why all those French guys who invented this theory made up their own words. They had no choice.
Though my ISTJ friend had a very ISTJ moment the other day. I was like "I'm going to prove that good and evil don't exist!" and she said, "but they do exist!" and I said "that's why you're having such a hard time writing your paper!"
Except with fewer exclamation points.
I almost understand the topic.
I almost got cast in the play.
I almost get along with my family.
I almost got my broadcasting project exactly right.
Almost. Almost. Almost.
I guess that's what my postmodernism paper is annoying me most about. This class is...nuts. My ISTJ housemate and I are taking it and she doesn't understand anything...or she understands it completely. But for me it's...almost. The topics are slippery--they're written that way on purpose I guess--but it's like trying to hold a bar of soap in the shower. You have it for a little, then you lose it.
I feel like I'm drawing an infinite spiral around the *point* of my paper, getting closer and closer but never quite coming to my conclusion.
Fairly sure the prof is IN_J...She seems Ni-dominant, but maybe it's because this topic seems Ni-Dominant. It hits me in flashes...the sum of all the info I've read + something that just lands there all of a sudden, then goes away. The most I can do is see the articles in terms of a giant web. They are all connected to each other but not each to every one. Like A will connect to B, which will connect to C, which will connect to D and B, and D will connect to A, which will also connect to E, Etc. The more I study the more connections appear.
And it's so complex and massage-y for my brain! It's like I get it, somewhere, deep in there, I've got it, but the thoughts are like amorphous blobs, inarticulable, and in order to articulate them I am reduced to outlines and charts and graphs, which only skim the surface and can never capture the *essence* of my amorphous blobby-thoughts.
I'm getting better with the articulation, and it's thankfully one of those useful papers that actually *increases* my understanding of the material, not asking me to spew back outdated literary criticism and somesuch, so it's worth it, even though it's tough.
My paper sounds alternately trite and scholarly and like a conversation with a 5 year old. It's pretty clear I've done the research but I'm working on articulating the idea. I have the idea. It's just not in verbal form! Before recently I didn't think thought was possible without the ability to verbalize but now I strongly disagree.
Now I understand why all those French guys who invented this theory made up their own words. They had no choice.
Though my ISTJ friend had a very ISTJ moment the other day. I was like "I'm going to prove that good and evil don't exist!" and she said, "but they do exist!" and I said "that's why you're having such a hard time writing your paper!"
Except with fewer exclamation points.
