All I want is for someone to tell me that everything will be just fine

[WobblyStilettos]

But they can't, because even I'm not sure of the extent of the shit I find myself in. Well, I say I found myself here but I have a nasty feeling that the things that are going wrong are largely my fault, but I don't know what I've done wrong so I can't watch out for it in the future. Still, I can fix this, right? If I can't, what's the worst that could happen? Other than getting stabbed, that is.

I am the kind of deeply annoying person who tends to land on their feet and find their way out of whatever situation they are in. What if my luck runs out this time? I have too many things to think about and too many problems to fix and I can't be everywhere and do everything, believe me I've tried. I can't land on my feet if I'm trying to cushion someone else's fall. I can't find a way out if I am just falling from cage to cage going deep underground.

I can't do this, but I have to, so I guess I'll just have to find a way. But what if I break more things than I fix? What if my best isn't good enough?

A year from now, will any of it matter anyway?

 

[disregard]

When you think your luck has run out, it is not so, because falling on your face is what makes you strong.

 

[Tigerlily]

Nicole Kidman once said in an magazine article that if life didn't have pitfalls now and then, you'd have nothing to compare the really wonderful times to, or something like that. We need crappy times to realise when the good times come just how fortunate we really are.

Things will improve I promise you.