Chimerical
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- Joined
- Apr 30, 2008
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- MBTI Type
- INTJ
- Enneagram
- 1w5
I open up my old e-mail address from highschool. I see a folder titled E. It's my old pen pale Evette. I open it and there's only one e-mail. Me and her would send back and forth and talk about life.
The earliest date I saw was feb. 3 2002. I was so sad back then, but different than I am now. I wish I knew how special I was then, because now I'm less than that.
Now, it's hard to be happy, but I'll find a way. As I read the things we talked about I wonder why I have any trouble at all talking to people now. All these things that I'm reading about now, I did naturally. All this pick-up bullshit, I didn't that naturally.
All I felt, wanted, and desired back then was a desire to be kind and friendly and the rest fell into place. I still feel that now, but I have to work for it. I don't know what the hell happened and why I'm so different now.
The earliest date I saw was feb. 3 2002. I was so sad back then, but different than I am now. I wish I knew how special I was then, because now I'm less than that.
Now, it's hard to be happy, but I'll find a way. As I read the things we talked about I wonder why I have any trouble at all talking to people now. All these things that I'm reading about now, I did naturally. All this pick-up bullshit, I didn't that naturally.
All I felt, wanted, and desired back then was a desire to be kind and friendly and the rest fell into place. I still feel that now, but I have to work for it. I don't know what the hell happened and why I'm so different now.
