A few words about feeling grossly misunderstood...

[melomania]

I have recently been trying to work through some misunderstandings with my husband concerning his SJ communication style and my NF way of expressing emotions and feelings. We just broke some solid ground and were able to understand the other person's viewpoint a bit better. Now that I feel that I've tasted a bit of resolution to some of these feelings, I had a bunch of word vomit that poured out of me and I think it sums up what I have been experiencing on the inside and what I've been having such a hard time expressing in words...until now that is

Lost & abandoned in the dark,
I reach for you but you won't reach back, it seems.
I scream & cry, but there is no reply.
I beg and plead for you to see that I don't feel free to be me.
I fear your harsh words...
They cut straight to the bone like a freshly sharpened blade.
And so, I am silent and afraid,
And that way I stayed...
But no longer can I accept this blatant disregard.
No longer can I second guess my every word, my every move.
And I beg of you, dear to to hear these cries of desperation...
I beg of you to receive my truth!

Most of all, I beg of you to acknowledge my suffering and show mercy and compassion when you don't understand my ways.