small.wonder
So she did.
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I felt recently the stinging truth about one of the more stereotypical assumptions about 4s (and thus myself). I suck at the day-to-day, menial yet necessary tasks required to exist in the world around me.
Sometimes I just want to get away from bills and hold music and letters from the state about crap I need[/] to do.
I see the need for these things, but I'm sick of the complicated nature of them and that they distract me (us) from what's really important: Love, self realization, freedom, character, and using our gifts for good.
As a relatively healthy 4 (the scale is always sliding, of course) I am generally very good about bills, being punctual, getting my oil changed-- all in a timely manner, but I still dread it!
I swear, I thrive and do so well in emergency or changing situations, but stagnancy stifles and ruins me. Times that people have asked me if I'd ever thought about public office (they have, I know, weird.) my joking/serious answer is that the only time I could be successful in such a position would be in a reveloution. Friends have agreed and joked that I'd be assassinated otherwise because I'd refuse to bow to corruption.
But everyday is not a reveloution, and I still struggle to get the menial tasks done-- not because I think I'm exempt, not because I don't know the consequences, but truly because I don't find value in those things. And it's annoying to have to invest time in things I don't value.
Sometimes I just want to get away from bills and hold music and letters from the state about crap I need[/] to do.
I see the need for these things, but I'm sick of the complicated nature of them and that they distract me (us) from what's really important: Love, self realization, freedom, character, and using our gifts for good.
As a relatively healthy 4 (the scale is always sliding, of course) I am generally very good about bills, being punctual, getting my oil changed-- all in a timely manner, but I still dread it!
I swear, I thrive and do so well in emergency or changing situations, but stagnancy stifles and ruins me. Times that people have asked me if I'd ever thought about public office (they have, I know, weird.) my joking/serious answer is that the only time I could be successful in such a position would be in a reveloution. Friends have agreed and joked that I'd be assassinated otherwise because I'd refuse to bow to corruption.
But everyday is not a reveloution, and I still struggle to get the menial tasks done-- not because I think I'm exempt, not because I don't know the consequences, but truly because I don't find value in those things. And it's annoying to have to invest time in things I don't value.
